Win

Liars retribution

2009-10-21T23:16:00.004+08:00

A big LOL to my Plant Design Report. I subscribe to ICIS. com to get some info on acetone and.... yes I lied like hell.

I was punished for lying by a so dam good opportunity. What a waste.

Quote of the Day: Don't tell lies

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2009-10-18T23:33:00.002+08:00

Hey guys! I'm momentarily back.

So-so semester. ITP grade looks good aphebatically but rather bad numerically. Well, results aren't gonna stop someone from studying won't they?

I just realised Im immune to getting sick. But when i do, its like accumulated and affects me real bad. Worst still for a bio paper. Bio sucks!

Sentosa Class outing was more fun towards the night. Why don't i have any pictures???? My camera is not good enough to take. Oh well.. Feeling great! Dump Barillas into the sea with his phone. A big LOL to that.

Losing morale to do projects. Morale drained. Don't blame me. I understand how it feels like now to demoralized.

Class trip to Sam's house yesterday was really great! If only it had been earlier. I envy the rich who stay in 3 storey houses while i stay on a HDB. But im thankful for what i have too. Thank you Sam for inviting the class to your house for dinner! It was great and really enjoyable!!

To the cabinet of 3A/21: It was me who switched off the fan 3 times while u guys were enjoying it. Say sorry for accusing yong le and whack me tomorrow when school starts!!!!

Erm..... summarises all that happened during the holiday.

Thursday

2009-07-09T22:28:00.003+08:00

Change: Blog Name
Reason: Won't tell You. Don't ask

I just read all my previous post. I really make use of this blog to vent anger and rarely write sumthing happy. When I'm happy, blogging comes last to my mind. When im not, vice versa.....

Wanted to escape lesson today, if not for Claire's e-mail, i wouldnt even be in school today. I finally realise why WeeSiong says bout the mood to not go to school.

I've been really lazy this week. I don't feel like doing anything. Not even pay attention in class. For Wed and today's lesson, i didnt. I played around with Sharads HP for 2 hours of bio. My own hp today too.

Mood: Unmotivated.

WEDNESDAY

2009-07-08T15:46:00.002+08:00

Sorry bout my previous post. Don't worry bout the stuff there. In a bad mood yesterday. Don't worry, if u feel u didn't offend me, its not you.

TUESDAY

2009-07-07T22:32:00.002+08:00

GOODNESS!!!! FIRST TIME IN MY ENTIRE POLY LIFE I DID SO BADLY FOR A NOOB mtb paper. Elective wasnt so bad. I can't promise i will buck up. I'm starting to lose hope in this shit. I got no mood to study, or to work. I took this course not because of any goals i have in life. I came to poly aimlessly without objective in my future. For the first time, i feel like im gonna get owned hard by yr 3. I really feel like swearing like hell today. Im refraining myself from doing so.... cuz of certain category of readers when they stumble across my blog.

I NO LONGER CARE WHETHER U READ THIS.
NOT EVEN IF U HATE ME, STAB ME OR WHATSOEVER
I CAN NO LONGER GIVE ANY SHIT BOUT U WHATEVER U SAY BOUT ME IN FRONT OF OTHERS.
I DONT CARE IF U CARE FOR ME ANOT
REASON? NONE. SICK OF IT...

MOOD: NOT EMO, NOT BEING SENSITIVE. VERY ANNOYED BY U.

Friday

2009-07-03T18:36:00.002+08:00

Finally... all stupid MST are over. Still freaking busy after MST. Cause of SP 'wonderful' course management, we have to sacrifice lots of time. Oh well.... dun feel im going to do well this semester. Though i say that all the time, its just a feeling i feel. Wont care about it for now.

Felt so HIGH today after MST. Came home and ran up the stairs, slipped and fell. Right ankle is a little swollen but hell of pain. 2 months ago, injured my left foot badly till i couldn't walk for 1 night. Still not totally healed yet, feels like my bone jutting out when i stand up straight. Not serious anyway but regret not going to a doctor. Too late....

I cant think of anymore things to write..... seriously. Blogging mood just comes and goes. Got lots of private things to write but I won't say anything here.....

If i were to complain every little thing, the world would hate me. But yet if i were given a chance, all the words in the world wouldn't even be enough.

2009-07-01T17:39:00.002+08:00

First 2 days of test really demoralising. Hate tests. But today's petrol wasn't so bad. Have a really horrid headache. Im already starting to be pestered like shyt!! Hate it too.... Not commenting further.

I promise myself i'll start training once this sem is over. Need lots of willpower to do that. Feeling really tired now. Need to mug and mug now. Bio & Math tmr. Really heavy day.

2009-06-28T20:33:00.001+08:00

Im seriously mentally exhausted, going retarded soon. What do I do when im retarded, going nuts and siao?

Warning: DO NOT BUY THIS LAMP FROM IKEA + DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME!! (FIRE HAZARD!!!!)

If u cant see this, tell me and i will try to reupload. Uploading takes a freaking long time.......

Tools used: An 11 year old study lamp from IKEA + Sisscors + my hands....

2009-06-28T00:30:00.002+08:00

Arggg!! i give up learning how to add links. I have to upgrade my stupid template which may means losing all my cbox things, and lots of things. I guess i'll have to wait till exams are over than I'll find time to learn.

I wont blog bout studies this time. Cause same things bore people.

After studying halfway through petrol, i decided to go for a random jog to so-called relieve stress. Went at 10.30pm night at was really dark and spooky. Really mentally exhausted. I saw this random guy jogging round Toh Guan Park so i decided to wait in the dark for him to run pass me and wait till the road is clear. Who would have known it was SQ. Haha.... hope he doesnt read this. Jog all the way to Spencer hse to take his shoes with him. Long time didn't talk to him also. Anyway, we chatted bout almost the SQSS things.

Michael Jackson died of Cardiac Arrest! Though it doesn't really affect me, kinda sudden. Goes to show how unpredictable life is. Saw on ChannelNewsAsia that every1 in the world are gathering juz because of his death. Even China people crying on TV, so LOL.

When im free, im gonna add my Class photos (from Nursery - Pri - Sec - Poly). Scan when i got the time.

Gonna sleep now. First service at 8.30am tmr. Hope i dun fall asleep again......

2009-06-26T00:47:00.002+08:00

Thanks to all who have been cheering me up. I believe u guys are as stressed as I am. Maybe if all of u have a blog, u will also be complaining juz like me. My blog says it all. LOL. I am again, as usual, mugging and mugging while getting distracted cuz i just cant seem to concentrate anymore. Need to sleep and recharge. JIAYOU to all studying!!! I just realised this is only MST and not end sem exam so shouldnt take it too hard. Same goes for u all too!

I realised i can eat again. My tooth is back to normal. No more blood but my gums feel quite mushy... (EWWW). No more irritating stitch & strings tangled around my mouth. Being on sedation is fun but really expensive. Just a small shot cost more than 200 bucks. Ouch to my dads wallet. Talking bout dad, I shared money with my mum and bro to buy a GPS system for my dad so we wouldn't get lost when we drive to new places. I haven't seen him use it yet but i will see soon. Anyway, thats all for fathers day. Kinda late to blog about it too.

Thinking of things to write each time i blog. Oh yea.... Samuel (my church) intro me this dam nice show called "Taken" Released about last year. Its seriously action packed and dam nice show.

Just a show about a man whos daughter got kidnapped by some illegal organisation and the list of professional things he did to save her. A professional father is what I describe but its just a show but seriously worth watching.

I realised i stopped "emoing" for a very long time. Dunno why. Just a random comment so don't read this.

Thats all folks!

STUDYING SUXS

2009-06-25T00:39:00.002+08:00

My title says it all. I dun need to elaborate any further. CEM chapter 5 is murdering me. I cant remember any bio shit i learned this morning. MTB formulas all forgotten. I guess i really have to start praying hard. I just realised i haven't studied finish anything because mostly all are halfway done. I will wake up early and sleep late till MST is over than i can RIP.

Went to school to study today. Studied from 10 - 5. Only 1 and half chapt of bio studied. What a total waste of time. Whats more, im studying by myself so no distractions, almost nothing to stop me. But now i cant remember any nonsense i learned this morning. Im really having "fun" with chemical engineering. To those who randomly come to this blog looking for a good course in poly, DO NOT CHOOSE CHEMICAL ENGINEERING IN SP OR U WILL DEFINITELY REGRET IT JUST LIKE ME AND I MEAN IT.

Praying hard that i will finish everything on time.

My dental appointment on monday. Removed my stitch. Ouch seriously, didnt expect them to "siscors"my gum. Really hurts. Cracked tooth still sensitive, given sysodyne (Dunno how u spell this). Today, removed a stitch in between my tooth myself, not supposed to do that but it really hindered my chewing.

I found sumthing really interesting while searching through UN peacekeeping. These 2 guys look seriously alike. Made me feel like laughing. Hair, face (almost), their smile and so on.

If you don't know who these 2 guys are, heres your bloghomework. SEARCH GOOGLE.

Thanks RYAN for saving me for CEM. Thanks to SHUFEN too. If not for them i wouldn't have any notes to copy from and i will DEFINITELY die. Thanks to FARHAN whom i sms daily to ask random MST things.

To all studying for MST. "JIA YOU" cuz i almost no more "you" le.

Latest Post after 1/2 yr

2009-06-21T23:54:00.002+08:00

I just realised how dead my blog is. Its so dead that i got seriously no idea how more dead can this blog get. I juz simply don't have the least of mood to blog one bit. My blog has got no facilities. No links to others, no songs, no this and no that. I simply cant be bothered learning all this since im such an irregular blogger. Oh well, todays an exception. Maybe today's post will be long, and mind you extremely long. LOL.

Starting from CHURCH CAMP back in 2008 DEC. Same place as 2007. I enjoy church camps quite a bit. I like playing games during the breaks like soccer but hate playing with a sore loser who wants only good people on their team. Enjoyed my cameron trip. Nice and cold. Lots of yummy food but the path over there is really windy, dizzy and long.

Got over poly yr 2 at long last. Happy with results, unhappy with overall. Hate my CPTC cuz of my logbook comments and worry for that grade. Comment spoil my CPTC life. Only started hating it after i saw that damned comment. Pray hard for a reasonable grade.

Yr 3 is really hard and tough. Really loathe each day in poly now (academically only). 10 modules rip me of my life. I wonder why the heck i chose Chem Engineer as my course? Why am i so stupid? Seriously squeezing me dry. 10 modules is really no joke. I doubt any JC people can survive this course. Who said poly is slack? Im mugging my guts off so I have a place to go when I graduate. What Ryan said was right. Why study this when probability of going U in this course is zero? Printed out the NUS & NTU cut off, stared at it 1 whole day sourcing for a good course. Overseas will really sap the cash of my parents pockets. Who wants that? Though most teenagers dont, i worry of the financial status of my parents alot, and i mean it.

FYP design failure. Laugh at us for all i care. Tell us eariler instead of playing around and juz whacking whatever comes to ur mind to us. Now 3 of us got to slog our guts thinking of new things, designs and vendors. 8 weeks of FYP wasted. GREAT. We are in the middle of studying MST now and we have got no time to study. No FYP for 2 weeks. GREATER than Great. I really need to mug hard for MST. Really worried my GPA will drop. Drop until no U wants me. Just wished i had no school for another 2 weeks and maybe H1N1 will spread more so sch will close? :P. Everyday wake up early and sleep late. Thats why i hate DCHE.

Chester has been dropping by my house pretty often. Oh well, at least got some1 to tok cok with and play with everytime. So busy with POLY that i got not much time to relax. Hmm.... hes kinda like a bro to me. HAHA... hope u dun read this. :P

Attended seminar from Life BP chruch every night last week. Must say its really refreshing to go after studying or something. Even though I miss my studying time, i feel i didnt waste my time. regretted nt going for first night. Driving back on thurs, Sook quin told me im pretty quiet and cold in church. That was seriously an unexpected comment coming from someone who doesn't know me well. I've got nothing to say cuz i got really nothing to say. My bro is not me so don't always expect us to be alike. No doubt im the quietest among my brothers cuz im too watchful of what i say to others. Well, everybody has their clique in church and so do I, some just don't mingle around and for a particular reason I don't too. No offence nor targetting any1 in particular. Maybe i should write something about myself so that people will understand why im like that.

Me : I am 18 going 19 on 2009
Likes: Everything that i dont like. Playing pranks in school!! Doing crazy things.
Dislikes: DCHE (academically), people who annoy me.
Character: Shy, Quiet, Noisy, Mischevious, all depends on my enviroment. Express myself better in words rather than my mouth. Actually, it all depends.
Mood: Moody, not emo, stressed, going nuts, distracted, infuated??? :P

Win is really stupid. No comments.

2008-12-06T23:12:00.004+08:00

Yippe..... Everyone would rejoice especially those who finish exams. LOL. I feel like a kid again. Anyway, it feels like ages since i lasted blogged. Was super busy studying and super lazy to come to this website to tell stories and all. Anyway, had a super hectic schedule for past 2 weeks and of cause now im done with round one. Incoming holiday assignments. Counted at least about 10 assignments to do within 1 week. After that away for church camp and KL for the other 2 weeks. Hectic isn't it??? Stressful but on the other hand, the taste of holidays is just lovely.

Oh.... and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RYAN yesterday on 5th dec. Finally grown a year older. Yesterday what we did to you was really fun. Though running away was really tiring. I dont think anyone took a picture of smashed cake on your face. BTW, you ran really fast yesterday.... thats a compliment!!! If i didnt hide i would have been your victim. Anyway wish you all the best.......

Gotten a great headache after a nap today. Should not be taking naps on a hot day especially near windows where the sun scorches brains. Well maybe shouldn't be staring at the screen for too long either. I've been doing that the whole day as im bored.

Supposed to go out today to help YX study. Didn't actually have the mood to go out and was doing some pract stuff. Tomorrow then...

I'm starting my gaming spree once again. Battlefield 1942 and NDS Luminous Arc. Finally after many days of "research", "downloading" and "configuration" (key words here), gotten NDS to play like NDS and honestly, im pretty much proud of it. At least i dashed my own hopes of having to borrow NDS from people.

Hmm... so anyone wants to "touch to start"?

2008-11-16T00:31:00.005+08:00

This was taken last week. Hope you guys can see it. DCHE 2A/21 and im the camera man of cause. All the Stars wannabe all surrounding me. Watching Jay(edited) and Hebe. And Lin Jun Jie's cousin is right in front there at the teacher's desk. I don't believe it up to today but i guess its really true.

Heres a payback to what THIS GUY above has been doing to me. Bullying me in class and stuff. So FMA lesson was a boring yet good opportunity. Oh.... not to mention it wasnt my idea to take it.

Lots of things going around me. Too busy and stuff to do. I don't know how to manage my time though i can manage files on my com. MST coming up really soon. Don't know how to start studying. Astro test on friday and its 30%. Went for Astro test last week without knowing theres a test. Screwed up big time and messed up 10%. Oh.... grats to those who are done with O & N & A levels. You can laugh at me mugging away while you all enjoy life just like how i laughed at you guys last month. Oh well.......

I tried configuring NDS emulator. I thought it worked well till i tried to save. Im stuck up in this nonsense again. I don't have time to deal with it yet i can't get it off my mind. Requiring help regarding "no$GBA v6a" and if theres a 1/100000 chance that you know how to deal with it, please help me.

Mass downloading movies & animes while studying.

2008-10-28T19:01:00.003+08:00

Alright. Heres a happy deepavali to all my friends regardless of race. Hopefully when i wish more, we get another day of holiday (LOLS). Weekend passes pretty fast. I didnt do much study cause i didnt have much mood. Know that this always happen all the time. This "dont feel like studying" mood. Got Bruce Almighty video from dl and i keep laughing like crazy. That video is sooooo super funny that i got nothing more to say.....

Managed to download and painstakingly configure NDS emulator on my computer. Now i wont have to waste $200 - $300 to buy one. Downloading games too is a pain.... Well.... all this for free anyway... hope i dont waste my time playing too much DS.

Oh... if u want to configure emulator for DS try searching youtube. Pretty helpful tips.

2008-10-23T20:35:00.002+08:00

Almost or already 2 years and i still have yet to learn to link other people. Will make an effort to do so this weekend. Downloading "Bruce Almighty" now. Seems to be in some wierd format i hope i will be able to deal with it. "Home Alone" too. Ages since i last heard of it appear on TV. I enjoy seeing a kid torture baddies. LOL.

Studying life is getting rougher. I still cant differentiate Basic Intruments and Process Instrumentations. Having a pretty tough time with most of my modules. All the credit units are sky high. Well, i will just try to cope with it just like how i say each semester is harder. For the first time on tuesday in my entire poly life, i escaped 2 lessons. Almost brainwashed many people to follow me. Well... thats a good start for a new semester.

Yesterday had GEMS again. While at bus stop, me and zh saw a guy drop his bag into a puddle of water. It was raining and his bag was unzipped. I couldn't take it and started giggling. Zh beside me gave his usual loud burst of laughter. I know its really bad for me to do that but after laughing i feel really sorry for that guy. Imagine if something that "sway" were to happen to you and others laugh... i would feel pretty moody. Blogging this to confess my evil deeds......

Today was a pretty funny day. Played basketball with class guys. Ryan, me and Suresh teamed. All the noobs VS all the pros. Even going easy on us, we still lose. Somemore making a joke that all noobs team, wish came true. I laugh till stomach pain and cant concentrate playing one bit. Seems like its true that those who like soccer will dislike basketball. I dun really enjoy basketball but i just play for fun.

Another 3 hours break tomorrow... zzzzzz

2008-10-19T22:24:00.005+08:00

Wondering whats the thing i posted? I chanced upon this wallpaper of a brother feeding his sister. Made it my desktop wallpaper since i find it super cute. Fell in love with this desktop wallpaper. Just a random post here and there especially when i got nothing to write.

Schools starting.... Another new week. So whats goonna happen? Seems like a very tough week up ahead. Lots of modules and all. Seems like alot of memory work for this semester. I will have to study harder than last sem of cause.

Looking forward to holidays once again......

Thursday 16/10/08

2008-10-16T22:28:00.002+08:00

Getting over my blues pretty fast. A great thanks to 2A/21, making me laugh till wanna die. Today really keep laughing like crazy making me really nuts. Had a great game of pool today and my buddy was Jianwei. Truthfully if i partner with another of myself i think i would confirm lose. Anyway, wasted 3 hours + of my time slacking and relaxing. Never done this for a long time since yr 1 sem 2. Classes were so so. More or less getting used to my new life and all.

GEMS class, me and Zihao in the same class. After 2 years + we get to be in the same class again. Anyway, another PST as my lecturer. Comes in and straight away keep warning us of rules and regulations as if we are jailbirds. Class is pretty packed and got some irritating people who cant keep their mouth shut. Thats to be expected since my class is pretty packed. Anyway, i dont see my GEMS as a really good module. Poor judgement of mine.... haiz......

Finished Code Geass. Pretty sad for an ending. Nice story and all, started downloading the OST. Theres a song in the OST that has an orgel and it sounds really beautiful and sad as well as some vocal. No rock of cause since i pretty much dislike rocky musics. Im a guy who cherishes peace and quiet so i prefer transquil songs. I guess i do differ from those who like rock bands and all.

Tomorrow is friday. Gotta prepare for practical on monday. Will never forget how my group got trashed by practical last semester. According to ah siong, our group's grades for C react were pulled down by at least 1 rank. We were really caught off guard by this practical system. Anyway, have to work hard this semester. Seems like Heat Transfer is going to be a really tough module. I dont understand what the teacher is talking and i dare not stop in case i get "OWNED" by the teacher front of everyone.

Going to read up on my stuff now. Better not waste too much time on unecessary stuff. Every semester is getting tougher and tougher.

2008-10-15T00:10:00.003+08:00

Schools pretty funny today. Thanks to my classmates im feeling much better. Had a good laugh and i guess ur troubles will flee. Im glad there are only 2 messed up lecturers as the rest seems kind and more caring.

Still in a holiday mood. Watched Code Geass and im finishing (not yet) both seasons so fast. In less than 1 week im wiping out the series with my eyes. Pretty nice anime, recommended to all anime lovers cuz its really cool. Going to spend my school days wiping out this series and study less. Erm... specially for this week only.....

I still don't quite like going home. I hate this saga. I really dread home now because of 'that'. So everytime i come home, i jam myself in the study room and hardly talk. If you say im just overreacting, get in my situation and you know you are wrong. I can differentiate tolerance and over the limit very well. For me, its just over the limit and nothing else. Like i say, if you know what im going through, you will really be irritated with.... oh well.... no more demoralising comments. I'll refrain from saying anything else.

Decided not to use anymore short form, internet language to type on this blog. This is because i feel irritated with the way i type before and not to improve my english. So yup... heres the change. Going to sleep now. I dont want to be awakened with stress and mess up my own mood.

Stressed!!!

2008-10-13T22:33:00.003+08:00

Lots of complains today. Dun hate me or think im pessimist or wadeva after reading it..... but if u wanna read, welcome to do so......

Ok.... school starts so the regular monday blues. I started off sch in a pretty bad way, blacklisted for being late and bitched by a bitch. Anyone who were me would have found themselves in a pretty messed up position. I guess we all kinda have a couple of screwed up lecturers this semester. Another who gives out CDs thinking that laptop is the only way for us to learn, doesnt even listen to what others has to say and give super sarcastic comments though not to me. I got no offense or dislike towards these lecturers but i they really give off a "恨我" aura when they step into class. Forgive me for sounding offensive but i feel really 'yucks' today probably due to 'blues' and other factors......

Heat transfer, 5 credit units. I take 5 credits super seriously just like engineering maths. Can't afford to mess this one up but i got a strong feeling things wont go the way i want it to be. Seemingly a must to recap CPPB even when thats the module i "liked" most in SP and just when i thought i got over it, i get to do it at a higher level. All my time tables mostly 8am to 5pm everyday, all other courses get even and additional day to their weekend except for chemical engineers. Four practicals this semester, thats 1 more then last semester. I really hate SP practical sessions because they really drain your precious studying time for their irrelevant research not pertaining to your current modules. This kind of things are only relevant in the highest level of education like University.

And old problem has returned. My cousin and his dog has returned to my house to stay. The countinuation of this saga. I'll be honest and say i really dislike my cousin cause of many reasons but i will refrain from saying why except that he keeps poking his nose into what i do at home all the time as if i have to report to him. The dog really irritates me cuz it piss and shyts all over my house and make my grandma scream and wake me early at 7 in the morning. It really dirties my house and i dunno what to do. Really stressed at home and in school

My mum is beside me so i guess i'll stop here. Forgive me if i really sound offensive....... im really in a bad mood today.....

2008-10-07T23:38:00.002+08:00

Once again im blogging, as well as losing the will to blog. Usually when you see me post after a pretty long while for like 2 weeks or so, it means im pretty much bored with blogging. Anyway, holidays seems to be over in a snap and here comes the start of school blues once again. Oh.. and i really hate the intensity that builds up in me especially when it comes to signing up for gems class and such.

Had a dental appointment today and my dad woke me up at about 6.30 but i rolled over and fell back to sleep. Really hate this feeling as if im waking up to go to school. For the first time ALONE, I had to go to through dental appointments and those who know me well will know why i HATE dental appointments but i guess....... Anyway, went to wrong building since dental institute has 2 buildings but i was redirected by a kind clerk. So off i went to the place where i kept on going last time. Nothing much about it has changed, 7+ in the morning i thought i will be the first to arrive. Ended up second and i waited kinda long even when theres almost no1 around. And so.... cleanup and all...... and dentist told me to go for implantation when im 21 and that should be b4 i enter NS. If you dont know what implantation is then well..... go check it up on the net. Read till u understand and u know what i went through before.

My mum had an op. At least shes better today. Waited in the hospital for four hours + for her discharge and the nurse kept saying doctor is coming now. 1hour + later, the doc came. So all well for now.

Better enjoy the last of my holidays.....

Long "awaited" post

2008-09-19T23:55:00.003+08:00

Back from Malaysia and of cause Langkawi (duh... almost 2 weeks ago). Here am i blogging again. Get kind of bored when u blog too often.... im also multi-tasking right now..... talking on msn with dobok, playing RS, and of cuz blogging now. Im nuts right?? Im slacking full-time playing PSP, mass dl, computering and all. Well, trying to do sumthing other then that but i guess im really bored......

Results were out on weds and thurs. To be honest, i had a really hard time sleeping cuz i dreamt i forwarded modules. Sounds fake but its true. I wasnt too "enthu" bout knowing my results but yea, i couldnt sleep till 2.30 so i went check and .............. the end............. Hmm, wasnt too happy with it but wasnt too sad either. Satisfactory... cuz im not expecting sumthing high as yr 1 sem 2. Doubt i'll ever get those kind of results again since its kinda like a "stroke of luck" but for yr 2, my results are kinda unexpected. I got a B+ for bio and i was kinda happy cuz in my dream, i didnt know how to do a single qns on bio exam paper and end up not doing MCQ. I ended up begging Wong to give me a chance and he gave me another but i still didnt do the paper. Though dreams arent realistic, im juz satisfied with my results more or less. LAV managed to scrape an A. Im happy with that 1 cuz i was too tired on the day of that paper taking it at 6 - 8 at night..... Oh and btw, gratz to those who did well (though i dunno who u are). For those who didnt, well "jiayou" next sem!!!! its not the end of the world yet. Dun forget i started Poly in sem 1 last yr with demoralising results. Juz put in more effort next sem since got another 3 more sems to go.....

Oh... for my langkawi trip, heres a nice pict of me of cuz.

In a animal park where u pay RM1 to get animal feed. Deers an rabbits only!!! no BEARS fyi. That rabbit i was patting is super fluffy and cute!! I juz bought the feed and more then 10+ rabbits and 1 deer swarm all around me. Best still only my family around and no others. Of cuz thats the best place of langkawi. Worst thing is that everywhere raining cant go anywhere. Summore my mum likes to go all the unnesesscary places like shops which i dun fancy. I guess guys dun like shopping. Anyway, quite fun overall.

Guess i'll stop here. Nth much to blog anymore. I guess i'll be doing what slackers do on a holiday. And oh... heres sum interesting fact i found out bout most bloggers. Most (not all) of them are temperamental and what u call melancholic especially those who express themselves better in words rather than in speech. Like me for instance. JW is a blogger who isnt melancholic but the rest are more or less are. No offense cuz im the same too.

PSP addicts, be warned.

2008-09-02T23:18:00.002+08:00

Gosh... the PSP i borrowed, ive been playing it till im going blur. Not as in what i already am but my vision. I juz spent 2 hours + playing and i see things like my eye degree is 400+. And thats what im seeing now as i stare at the screen blogging. So PSP ppl, dun play too much PSP esp in the dark cuz ur eyesight will really worsen. Im the living testimony of this fact.

Games i played on PSP so far this year:
1) Brave Story (really nice RPG game)
2) Silent Hill Origin (Guts???? play in the dark. Tried once, wont do it again...)
3) Breath of Fire 3 (Very long and kinda boring...)
4) GTA (Boring.....)
5) Patapon (No comments....)
6) Bomberman ( No comments either)
7) Downstream Panic (Cute game!! Use brains to save the fishes!)
8) Tales of the World (A super long game - incompleted)

Went to the gym today. I didnt do much today. Maybe cuz i wasnt well prepared. I played with my dumbbells yesterday n i got owned today. Kinda waste of time esp see zh do and do while me n yx do nth much. Anyways... in for a bad ache tomorrow. Juz played with my dumbbells again. Kinda weak right now. A prove i havent been doing anything for 5 months + of proper exercise.... Oh wells, will train myself properly for a month see how it goes. I came home at bout 1+ and realised im starting my dl frenzy again. Oh, the Red Alert 1 is out on the main webpage and its free, both allied and soviets. But the file is freaking big, scared it jams up my com esp of its space.

Talking bout computer, my com is turning absolutely nuts. My keyboard is causing me probs even as i type now (Thankfully not my laptop 1). It started restarting on its own especially due to some DIVX codec problem when im watching AVI formatted videos (thankfully not all the time), AVG i cant seem to get it up on my com so i started AVIRA which i hope works better for nuts..... Im really afraid my laptop goes 'siao' again. I dun wanna go back acer cuz they may make me pay for repairs which i think its not worth it.

Going to KL tomorrow. Dun really wanna go langkawi or anything but thankfully i got my PSP equipped so i more or less saved from boredom. My cousin came to stay and will be staying in my house for 5 months! From SP and same age as me. I dun really wanna flame him but hes 1 whos character i cannot get along well at all and i got great difficulties getting into his eccentric and 'PROFESSOR' like minded world. Gosh... whats my aunt thinking??? Going to Denmark for 5 months juz to accompany my uncle for a business trip?? Summore got a dog that pees and shyts all over my house every day. Makes my grandma scream every morning and making me wake up every day especiallly during exam day till when i came home from C React paper i shouted at every1 at home even my parents. Thankfully i got an understanding mum who at least understood that i am in a 'berserk mode'. Well, dun have good sleep for exams and im kinda prepared to not do as well... But i hope i dun fall all the way back. Im really praying hard that i dun. Well... who does???

Oh... read the news of a 16yr old boy who tio car accident today. Kinda sad when i read this kind of news. Well, hes should be punished heavily for licenseless driving but not this way. Taking O lvls summore, imagine how sad hes frens will be... affected in their final exams. Just drive carefully on the road and all would be well.

Gotta shut down my com now. My downloading frenzy the whole day overworks my com and guess it needs a break. Everything should have a break, im also gonna break from all the aches. Blog again next mon or so...

31 August, End of the month

2008-08-31T19:27:00.003+08:00

Ok. So i'll say what my whole class would say if each of them had a blog. EXAMS over. Kinda ironic, when before exams, every1 mugging so hard and wish that holidays will come. Yet when holidays are here, i feel kinda bored. Not sure how im gonna spend 1 month + of sch holiday. Not gonna work cuz i got other plans.... well.... not to say very exciting ones but not spending whole day playing com or PSP that i borrowed for Chest. Anyways, ya.... exams are over and waiting for results. Juz hope dun drop alot like sem 1 cuz sem 1 my results are kinda suicidal and a bad way to end the semester. Sem 2 was quite a dream come true 1. I understand why i was "flamed" in yr 1 sem 1 and i guess if others had my kind of studying attitude, i'll "flame" them too. So i guess reflect upon urself before u reflect others.

Elijah and his 2 "pals", Denise and Peggy left for aussie ( i think so) today for overseas ITP. Good thing didnt tell my parents or they will make me go at knifepoint. I wont go for sumthing that will drain my "hard earned" holidays and not contribute to my grades but well, learning is good exp but im not prepared to learn what i think i might forget even though going there may be unforgettable. Anyways, wish them 3 a safe journey and great learning trip as well as um.... "GREAT" time...... Oh Naziah too i think going sumwhere for ITP but forget where. Wish her the same likewise.

Im going to KL once again and to langakawi the very next day. Well to be truthful i dun wanna spent too long a time there as its kinda 'sian'. Not cuz of ppl around you but of the things to do around you. Hope sum1 can rescue me from the disease of boredom this holidays. PSP and laptop doesnt always help! Im not that much as a computer fanatic that my brother has 'spread' around bout me, i can dun touch the laptop for almost 1 week and i proven it last week. Thats cuz of EXAMS!!! Well, every exam last time i always play sum games on com before going for exam. I rmb playing Kingdom Hearts on com desperately trying to complete it before my E-MATH paper II for 'O' lvls started. See how 'prepared' i was???

Im back to before once again. Praying to God before my exams and then stop after it. See how "spiritual" i am??? Gotta do sumthing bout myself but i also dun wan to do things out of chore. Apart from that i feel kinda normal again. Church camp this year is the same at last year. Same place and all. Dun feel like going back there to the same place cuz i prefer sumthing different. And it seems like over the 3 years, length of church camp stay increase from 3 days 2 nights to bout 5 days and 4 nights. Sumhow getting longer and longer. I always try escaping from testimonial night cuz i feel its atmosphere and aura given by people is very thick and scary. Not becuz of feeling convicted but becuz if ur chosen, u feel super lost. Anyways, i hope to improve being a Christian cuz i find at times i dun feel like one.

Lets add in sumthing new each time i end my post.

Quote of the day: Look into the mirror before you have others face it.
Meaning: Reflect before judging others.

Mood: MIXED thoughts

2008-08-09T00:24:00.004+08:00

On my murder list:

- MJF (Most wanted! Shud have whack u more when bee fly on u)

- Mukkesh (DUN ACT LIKE U NOT INVOLVED!!!!)

- Farhan (May u grow a sting on ur a**)

- Elijah (Drop ur camera hp on floor!)

- Ryan (May u laugh till u replace ur lung with plastic bag)

- SURESH AHMAD (SHould have tied ur bag to the railing with a lock last week)

And YOU GUYS KNOW WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I see that pict im going berserk!!!! I tore it up hoping i'll never see it again and this was what they did and again you all know why. You guys make my thursday crazy!!!! ARGGGG!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! but its kinda fun!

OK. back to End sem exam. Really going cuckoo over it. Oh its national day now. i've got some national day resolutions. I wasnt in a good mood today for 2 reasons during FMB presentation. I really screwed this module to no end, i guess its gg for me in this module and chem react but im praying hard i wont go all the way down. My dling is wasting my time and i juz realised im addicted to it. I wanna study so pls dun bother me!!! laptop!!! I hate my laptop for distracting me. IM chionging env now like siao so pls dun distract me. Im really stricken with fear and have dreams that i go for exam without studying. Thats the worst dream. Dun wan my GPA go below 3.5 or 6. Heard that ppl around that score cant even go U for nuts and i wont take my degree anywhere on earth except SG so i will type my NATIONAL DAY RESOLUTION.

I have really backslidedden in my faith and im trying so hard to not fall out. Total of 20% is holding me towards my faith due to parents, frens, and my "spiritual" conscience. I dun really wan this to leak out but those who read this pls dun mention it to others. I really dunno what happen to me.... i feel so hopeless that i wanna knock my head sumwhere. Is this what u call divine punishment?

NATIONAL DAY RESOLUTION

1) GPA not below 3.7

2) Renew my faith (IMPT)

3) Control my words, thoughts, actions & speech

4) Train myself in gym with a little tutoring of cuz.

5) Complete Silent Hill game on PSP after exam without freaking.

Boku wa akiramenai! (I wont give up!)

The tired me

2008-07-21T20:15:00.002+08:00

OK... things are sailing along quite smoothly in school and all. I hope i wasnt too offensive in my previous post cuz the last thing i wanna do is to offend people on my blog. Basically, sch juz the same as ever just that i find time for 1st sem yr 2 passes fast. In a blinking of an eye my MST is over, and it comes down to my last practical of all my modules and soon exam. Maybe before i know it, im already in NS. Better "enjoy" poly life while i can.

So here am i doing my practical 'formal' report. Anyways, i m trying to plan out my time so i can do other things b4 exam starts. Juz as what my title says, im tired. Not tired of life but tired of school cuz of my lessons and stuff like that. Exams are coming soon, gotta give my all and do my best. Im sure every1 in my class also quite stressed up over here and there. Especially Mr Mukkesh. His CCA and club stuff take up time, summore he do the most things for each group work and he still can top the class. Hes DCHE 2B/21 's 好榜样!!!

Gotta chiong sum of my reports. Feel like going to sleep now. Got not much of a choice either way. Gotta sleep early if not sleep in lecture class again. Sumhow, I always tio sleep spell cast by sum unnknown wizard or sumthing such that when i go Env engineering class always manage to sleep. Oh... tmr's class starts at 10. Can at least sleep abit later.

Plans after Exam: Ask Zihao to train me in gym. almost half a year never go liao. Im so analytical. Think so far ahead when havent even finish exam.

2008-07-19T00:55:00.003+08:00

Guess what??? im blogging once again after such a long time. In just 3 months or so which is the last time i blogged, so many things happened. So many things just revolve around me. So many things make me happy and sad. Well... i guess these 2 emotions are what life mainly has to show you. Things in school are turning for the worse. Well, i guess just have to blame myself for the analytical, melancholic side of me. Ever heard of the anime Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya??? Its the top anime in the industry for 2006 or 2007... cant rmb but anyway, everything about this show is like what its title depicts. MELANCHOLIC. Even fantasy or such are associated with this temperament. It thought me what a VERY melancholic person really is.

Back to time travel. 3 weeks to prepare for MST. So what did I do? 1st week rupture my toe from a soccer match which we lost so badly due to only 1 practice match and breaking our defensive formation and no stamina. Did a very relaxed study on the first week.

Second week, attended a church camp in which i had bad sleep due to trumpeting alarms in the middle of the night, and i was preached Romans 3:23 by a Japanese guy who attended my camp (one which i wont forget) but i still enjoyed my camp overall. I also went on a holiday to Batam which i found my hotel room rather spooky. Why?? I dun really feel like saying but for curiosity sake of readers i will say. Passage and corridors remind me of the silent hill game i play. My room was very nice but spooky due to the belcony. My belcony was just another room with no windows but walls and guess wad??? A cracked portion on the belcony floor as if someone dropped a bowling ball in. If say i was sleeping and someone were to knock on the belcony door, i will straight away run out of the hotel and sleep on the streets. I bought a nice white cap which now i think it looks like a bus driver cap.

Third week, desperately studying for MST to make up for the time wasted. Overall, i did below my expectations for MST esp 1 module but i wont give up! Boku wa Akiramenai!!! I will jiayou all the way for my exams.

Anyways, i had a really really bad week this week. I feel so horrible that i feel i've really changed since secondary school inwardly. I swear in my heart when things dun go the way i want it to be. I got screwed up for my practical when it was impossible to screw, straight after that, i spilled a ice shaked that Ryan treated me to seeing i had a bad day on myself summore making every1 at FC1 laugh at me. whats worse that my lesson was until 5pm an i spilled in the morning. I smelt of peach in the lecture room for 4 hours. Asking Elijah & Ryan to dry my jeans while i hide in the cubicle got me disturbed by all the boys in my class since they all in toilet. For example, Jk wanted to run away with my jeans, JW tried to climb over the cubicle to get a snapshot with his phone, the rest of guys making a scene in toilet. Ironically, it cheered me & made me feel less unhappy.

Wm and Kl got a warning letter for escaping gems. That would have been me if i pon gems this wed. Thankfully, i didnt due to some unknown force in my mind instructing me not to. I dread going for gems class since i dun like to see ppl i dun like to see esp those who spoil my mood. Lessons are rather interesting though since its a Lawless lawyer lecturing us and his stories are rather enjoyable.

Well well. SO what exactly is pressuring me? I'll say now. Assignments, reports, practicals, and its because every module i've got those nonsensical assignments that i cant spend enough time studying and exam is only less then 1 month away. I dun wanna juz do well to be the best but i just want to do up or beyond my expectations to be happy even if im last in class. Also, class internal problems also affects me (Try not to ask me this). Thankfully i poured abit of my problems to WS which i felt better after doing so if not i'll go crazy like the Korean guy who shot every1 down. Im thankful to have classmates who care for me even if they still bully me. :)

Im still brooding over things i should not but well. This is a blog where i pour my heart to. My parents care for me but they dun really understand me or how i think. I also dun want to bother them too much as they have their own problems. I've also started wondering if im a Christian or not. I ask myself so many qns that are impossible to ans as long as im on the earth. I hope i will tide over all this peacefully.

Just feel like being left alone for a day to reflect on myself. Im feeling rather down, doubtful and curious on my beliefs. I wont blog them in case they get read by unexpected ppl who discover my blog. Forgive me for my "emo" attittude but i guess this really is the true me. Isnt it????

2008-04-08T21:40:00.002+08:00

A dead post. Why? Coz im feeling too dead to blog. Maybe thats why i stopped blogging. Too lazy to update. do changes, edit or create post, too lazy to even link ppl. Well thats how i am.

Anyways, holiday's ending kinda fast. In juz 2 and a half weeks in Malaysia made me rot, but well, last half a week wasnt so bad cuz my bro brought my laptop. Made lots of adjustments and scanning a load of crap which made me almost spoil it. Thats juz 1 thing that i wont get lazy doing.

Btw, life for me isnt going the way i want it to. Cuz if it were, i wont be blogging. Im not emo but juz feeling a little down. (....maybe theres no diff....) Anyways, going sentosa tomorrow with class. Juz hope things turn out fine tmr.

Until then, slowly wait for the next post!!

**Note - Im going crazy by the day. Not part of my temperament but juz myself.

Oh ya..... in case u dont know my temperament, heres what my Psy&Coun module test said bout me.

Sanguine - 5
Melancholic - 5
Choleric - 2
Phlegmatic - 2
Unknown - 3

What can u say about me from this temperament test? Haha... crazy i guess.....

2008-02-10T01:33:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!!!!!!!!! THOUGH ITS THE 3rd DAY

Ok.... got lots of new yr spams on my Hp. I like new year cuz i can eat. I almost got a sore throat from my cousin. Anyways, im fine! I hate cleaning up my hse though. Its so tiring esp when my parents go crazy on new year. They wake me up every morning since new year eve till today and of cuz later to go to church. Wake me up to clean the hse if not its to eat breakfast and arggghHHH!!!!! im so irritated. Work, get up early and holiday also get up early!!!!!!! Anyway, i went back to sleep after breakfast on first day and guess what woke me up? Lion dance next door. As a result, i slept a miserable 30mins.

Thats about all... im too tired to blog. i'll edit this tmr when im home....

2008-02-06T01:09:00.000+08:00

Its been quite some time since i last posted sumthing here. Well.... im indeed happy to mention that all my exams are finally over and all hard work ends, or so it seems. Im working now as a temporary assistant and today or rather yesterday was my second day of work. Its extremely back breaking and tiring cuz i always wanna slp when i return back from and 8-5 working time is long! Actaully, its my second time working. My first wasnt really official juz a 2 hour odd job found by a JJC fren. Nevertheless, i kinda enjoy my work cuz of the frens around me. First and second day of work already we start talking nonsense.

Went to Malaysia during the weekend. I didnt take any photos cuz that was the last thing that came to my mind. I kept wanting to go out for midnight meals cuz the food there is as usual, tastier than any other food in Singapore. You can actually taste the difference in cooking levels between the 2 countries. And as usual, i always play Aaron's PSP. I cant seem to complete my game each time i play. Oh ya..... almost couldnt return to Singapore cuz hes dog chewed up my dad's car no. plate. Chewed and i really mean chewed. So anyways, the purpose of the trip was to visit my granduncle (mother's mother's brother) who has been stricken with cancer and is in a bad shape till he cant regconise my mum and all. My mum told me that ever since my granddad died when she was 12, he was working 365 days a year from morning till bout 10pm with only 2 days off a year juz to get enough money to feed 2 families with a total of 8-9 children and 3 adults including himself. Hes own children, my cousin uncle (which is what i call them in cantonese) arent very fillial to him. I wont go into detail as in why. Anyway, hes in a state where he can go anytime and i wont say im very sad but im not at all happy either. My cousins all think the same way and we cant really seem to figure out why. So.... basically, thats my malaysia trip for u. Some asked me why im not a Malaysian when ALL my relatives are Malaysian. That is a very good qns that i couldnt figure out for 17 yrs of my life and u have to ask my parents why. Initally, both my parents side are all malaysians but recently my dad's side got sick of PR and got a citizenship 3 months back.

Thats all..... next time i will try to bring a pict of all my cousins from my mum's side. I've got a total of 10 cousins from my mum's side which i cant seem to find the pict of all 13 of us of my grandma's grandchildren.

2008-01-27T16:38:00.000+08:00

OK.... im starting to lose interest in blogging. Tell me what i should do... I kinda feel sian.....

I locked up my laptop forgetting i change password. I called acer and acer asked me go SP and check it out. Acer is so useless. I asked them for help they refer me to SP. I go to SP they refer me back to Acer. Both are really useless when u nid help. Good thing this is only temporary.

The End

2008-01-25T18:13:00.000+08:00

Ok. Heres the pict. Went to Vivo to celebrate my bros birthday. Marche is the name of that place and they use an interesting credit card system to order your food. As you can see the food looks good and yea, it tastes very good and high class. The picts taken makes it look like wet market but no, it isnt. Cuz the feeling when u are there is much different from the one you see here. The price..... well...... was rather EXPLOSIVE and i mean it!!!! Look at how much 1 glass of fruit juice cost. This is already one of the cheapest stuff there. When i dropped my cheese sausage on the floor, i picked it up and ate it cuz i seriously dun wanna waste food.

OOps... i broked my promise. I still have another paper on thurs but who cares? First paper APC, lets not talk bout it. MIP wasnt as bad, CPPA, today..... i even more dun wanna talk about it. I keep screwing up those 15 mark qns that i really dun wanna go on. Go on as in remember anything bout CPPA. Not to mention i kept praying b4 a exam. Nows left cal 2.

So i got a job offer in SP as a librarian or sumthing like that. I kinda regretted signing up for it cuz im sick of seeing SP. Sem 2 is almost over, thats kinda fast u know. I also kinda think back abit, as in how time pass so fast.

Ok...... thats all..... The End.....

My promise

2008-01-14T00:44:00.000+08:00

Im gonna make an oath, or kind of one. I promise to study for this 2 weeks without touching this blog or without playing any com games from Monday 14/01/2007 onwards till Friday 25/01/2007.

Hmm... lets see what happens if i break my promise..... oops.... i already did. Its 12.44am Monday now. My next entry would be next next week then.

A normal day

2008-01-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

Ok... i juz decided. i dun think im gonna change my skin. I prefer this old and normal ones. Anyway, its really hectic week this week, cuz of all the dumb projects, presentations, tests after tests and the weightage % of our tests is increasing greatly. MIP test juz over, i only discussed 1 MCQ qns but i felt kinda bad already. Then came briefing for CRS essay, so many topics and have to use our general knowledge as reference. Ok, these are the most boring parts of school at the moment, i intend to start studying tmr properly and juz take a bit of a break today after a long hectic week this week.

Stuff that makes me busy next week:
1) Psy&Coun Test
2) AE&E test (i fear this alot)
3) CRS argumentative essay test (I came to poly thinking theres no essay but im wrong)
4) Preparing for all the exams esp MIP!!!

Ok lets move on. Bout SP's open hse. We acted like noobs to get the goodie bags, free ice cream, canned drinks since they dun give it to SP students. I met Leslie after such a long time since pri sch. He didnt seem to regconise me till i called him. Hahaha.... really missed all my pri sch frens. He didnt change much since pri sch except that he grew taller. At least i know hes doing fine so yea. I always seen Gary Chew around but he doesnt seem to regconise me much and he became quite gangster so i was quite afraid to talk to him. Oh well.....anyways, thats bout all for SP this week.

My mum showed me a newspaper article today which made me feel quite sad. Bout the father of the daughter who drowned in Sentosa resort. Thats my tuition teacher. I havent seen him since the tragedy and I kinda hate myself for not going to visit him. When i saw the newspaper Farhan bought last sem, i felt dam sad and almost wanted to cry. I mean its like his family is in a very tough situation. He was being falsely accused but thankfully acquitted of the charges cuz of the cursed students who disliked him. If i could during CNY, im gonna buy 1KG of ba kua for them to show my appreciation. He was a good tuition teacher cuz he was the one who inspired me and pushed me to study among all my friends, he gave me extra lessons and allowed me to stay till late at night in his house to study. Seriously if not for him, i think i would be in ITE or doing nursing in Poly. What i meant is why are such good people like him having so much problems in his life????? Despite all his troubles, he still is a very strong man and i really admire him for his character and really thank him for all he has done for me.

The End. Next post: Maybe 1 week before exams.

2008-01-10T08:03:00.000+08:00

Ahahaha.... This is JK, Sharad and me in order. We "borrowed" our party items from them without them knowing of cause juz to have a shot. It was taken last friday our last CIP for this semester. Just a for fun shot to show we have a christmas spirit though christmas was long over.

Ok.... forget bout the comments they wrote us and lets go to mon. Studying is quite hectic now, exams are really round the corner. I am not having fun with exams of cuz. Im not laughing as much as i used to in class. Rehearsal for our psy skit was so embarassing and its like, we are really not ourselves. Seriously!!! I kinda screwed up 2 parts of my play and i feel so PS! I really fell of the table while attempting to suicide then its so embarassing esp in front of the class. But it went well overall, thanks to all my grp members.

Wed was CD presentation, though we didnt put in much effort for this slides since its quite last min, I am already very grateful to WeeSiong and his cabinet for adopting me into their grp and giving me his pizza (on tues) and ya, I really see a gd fren in him and of cuz in Elijah cuz they planned out my CD for me. I quite enjoy being around their gangs cuz of their laughter and bullshet and their care for classmates!!!!. Hahahahaha. APC test I juz did my best and im not gonna be bothered by it. Now concentrate on MIP. Getting ready to go sch later for calculus at 10 unless im blur and it starts at 8.

Next post, maybe on weekends.

Bad day

2008-01-04T19:45:00.000+08:00

I kinda feel my title is boring. A bad day thats what i call this day. Today is 4th Jan 2008 and i keep putting 2007. I feel very sad each time a year passes cuz i feel older and i dont wanna grow up yet. I kinda unhappy with a few people but i wont write bout them nor say anything cuz im Alwin. But one who made me most unhappy today was that manager of the Bethany old folks home.

DCHE 1A/21 has just got blacklisted by them today. Me, Sharad, JK and JW are involved. Every1 in 1A/21 has got a comment like ."Noisy, does not follow instructions when in big group." Straight away we went and confront them and ask them bout it. That lady refer us to the manager. We kinda had an argument bout it. She somehow kept insisting that we were noisy but yet when we ask her to define noisy she say cuz her colleague said so. So meaningless. Summore she said she regretted taking SP students directly at our face. I imagine ppl like Wei Ming will say sumthing like "Give us black mark then we go back for what?? Dun go liao la!!!" Ok..... she said we were noisy but cant tell us how we were noisy. I also dun remember us being noisy. Interaction with elderly called noisy? Like this no interaction would be even better! Its not that I hate doing work in the old folks home. Its just that I think and maybe the rest of 1A/21 wont be happy bout the way the admin staff there think and write bout us. It kinda make me not feel like going back.

Nevertheless, we still learned things in the old folks home today. For instance, the LOVE ward head there kept telling us bout the way they handle the folks which i found very interesting. Everytime I enter the ward, i always feel very sad. I see them all so helpless and senile and i always wonder what if 1 day i become like them or end up being a resident there? I learned to feed a deaf and handicapped elderly today, talked with some of the patients there, esp the 33 year old guy who was the youngest there. He fell from a parachute during his NS days, became paralysed badly and half blind and now, became a patient there. So we learned many things and the head nurse promised to teach us more if we go back next time. I kinda look forward to it.

I have to solo CD presentation now. Its ok anyway. I find it better only thing i have to do powerpoint all by myself. Oh yea. Time for my 2008 wishes and resolutions. Here they are:

1) To be a better fren to all
2) To do well for my exams and get a nice GPA grade.
3) To be less blur and a worry-wart
4) Be more prayerful
5) Find a Job during holidays
6) Have a healthy, happy family/relatives/friends

ok. RIght now feel like sleeping. Almost 4 hours standing up in the old folks home made me kinda tired. Next post would be when i feel like it.

2008-01-03T00:29:00.000+08:00

I havent got much time. Maybe thats why i didnt do a post for 1 week. I tried uploading a pict.... it seems to be very problematic. I will start making changes after exams to this old blog. I mean changes to this blog.

For 2 weeks, church camp and a trip to KL. Everytime b4 i go for church camp, i always think that its sian.... but attending it makes me feel totally the opposite way. i juz dunno why. During the camp, activites really fun and for once i bothered listening during the sermons. When we play soccer during breaks, i feel my soccer skills really suxs. It has become so horrible i dunno how to describe. Maybe it comes from months without playing. The last dinner during camp was super delicious and quite high class. I ate exceptionally alot. Wont go into more detail for the camp. But testi night every1 wept again. I managed to escape and play dota in my room.

Straight after camp came what i was looking for. A trip deeper in Malaysia. My cousin has a coke collection that i dunno what to say. Wait lemme try uploading.......

Success!!!!! lol!!!!Lets try again......

I was trying to get my cute youngest 1 year old cousin to smile at the camera while Aaron took photo. This was taken during her 1 year old birthday. I dont think she even knows its her birthday. Haha. Basically, i spent my Malaysia trip eating all the good stuff that u never get to eat in Singapore. Well.... thats always what i go there for. I miss the PSP!!!!!

I felt kinda 'emo' during Christmas. Maybe cuz it was spent coming back from Malaysia to SIigapore which took bout half a day. Its a super fast holiday. I feel so afraid not touching my books for 1 and 1/2 weeks. Projects, tests, exams coming up. Moving on to new year, went to church for watchnight service till 12am 1st Jan 2008. I do have a wishlist for this new year. I'll not go into that.

Thats bout all. I got some problems with this blog again. Next post will be either b4 or after exams. Kinda losing mood to blog. Thats how i stopped for 1 year.

2007-12-16T00:52:00.002+08:00

Ok... im trying hard to post this stupid pict but nothing seems to come out. I tried putting a song but my whole blog lag until i wanted to just destroy it. So that is the reason for my long post. My cousins finally went back to Malaysia on Thursday. The house kinda felt empty and summore no more PSP. Haha..... chang muz be proud he bought a PSP!!! Since they came and left, my best present of sore throat hasnt recovered 1 bit. I got a cold on thurs and i felt real sick till now. Today, my mum bought laksa for me but i couldnt even taste a single thing. Im getting crazy over my tastes!!! lol.

So heres what i did today on 15 Dec 2007 Saturday. Morning, went gym with Zihao. Supposingly wanted to ask Yx along but he got a new job so 1 down. Last min tried to rope in ppl but fail so in the end only the 2 of us. When compare him beginning of this yr, hes really dam buffed! Hes much stronger than me now. Doing weights and all, he juz keep adding like a robot and added till bout 50-60kg weights. I was really shocked! I do lesser and lighter weights and i wanna die liao but he can do alot and still add more. No wonder no 1 wanna go gym with him!!!! hahaha..... joking.....

Afternoon we went to Connie's hse to celebrate the 3 gals birthday. Her hse is really dam big! its like 4 times my hse or even bigger!!! 4 storeys leh!! Rich ppl like this de. Anyway, dinner wasnt so bad. Towards the end got some superstar challenge (juz to throw face 1). Here are the contestants: Ryan, WeeSiong, Elijah, JenKaen, Peggy, Shufern. Thats bout all i think. No winners since its a nonsensical performance. I really laughed esp on my way home. Laughed like crap. Seen so many funny things and felt like a madman.

For yesterday on Friday 14 Dec 2007, we went to old folks home to do CIP. I would say that it was really kinda tiring to see and take care of the old folks. More than 90% of the residents there are wheelchair bound. Kinda sad to see them abandoned, senile, and seems like they are planting both feet in the grave since there was ambulance at the side. Wee Siong's hokkien is really pro! I got nothing to say bout that too! Too pro to describe.

To end off, here are some things which i must confess that made me a horrible boy this week. I felt kinda bad after what i said. Santa Claus wont be giving me a present anymore.....(I dont mean what i say!!!!!!!)

1) Made fun of old folks (Invented games like HEART ATTACK and WHEELCHAIR RACING)
2) Said that i will push the wheelchair down the stairs
3) Tok too much cok today after party
4) Laughed too much
5) Wanted to bring laptop for dota in church camp and swear during service while playing
6) All of the above

2007-12-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY

Hmm... this may be a super long post. Its so late now.... 12am and im "illegally" posting now cuz my parents may kill me if i am caught. Anyways, heres how i spent my thursday. I cant seem to remember what i did the whole day. Oh ya!!! the whole gang of us went to VIVO city. Quite enjoyable experience. I spent $18 in total in which i felt kinda sore but its for a gd course anyway. So we all tok cok and enjoyed ourselves. Wee Siong, Jianwei, and Elijah laughed at me for comparing myself to that stuffed bear. Hahahaha... when i look back, i felt i was kinda retarded. They all said i looked like 1 so i didnt intentionally compared myself to it. I purposely missed the Student Chappel or wadeva u call it. I think i lost another CCA. So my cousins came at night and we all play like crazy till 1am.

FRIDAY

I slept during class today. I really feel very horrible and rotten. The price to pay for doing this may cost me my marks. We did CPPA prac in library. I spent the entire day playing once i came back. Dota, Silent hill on PSP (This is 1 heck of a fffrrreeaakkky game). So basically i played till night and ya.... it was fun.

SATURDAY

Ok... lots of birthday spams. Wee Siong promised not to sing it to me specially today. I received sum birthday gifts. 1 small soccer ball from my bro which was wrapped in tons of newspaper and i such a horrible time opening it (I'll post the pict next post cuz i dun have the pict with me). My cousin gave me a rubber ducky bank **QUACK!!!***, last of all i got a sore throat and a minor cough. With our chruch members, we all went to erm..... i forget the name of the place liao...... to eat of cuz. Not really a surprise party but the food wasnt that bad. Juz had a new fren and sum other not in our prayer grp to join us. The guys played bowling while i played my cousin's PSP. I bowled for my 2nd bro once and i got a strike as a birthday luck. So thats how we spent on Sat.

Lots of msgs from SQSS on happy birthday. How on earth did they ever know?????? I heard it was from friendster. I left my friendster to die last yr already. I felt kinda bad when they wished me cuz esp when Sufyan said he knows its my b'dae cuz im his fren. I never seemed to wish them in my sec sch life.

Wishing myself: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALWIN!!!!!!!........pathetic............

SUNDAY

Hmm.... what should i say bout today???? my parents went out to Batam and no1 entertain myAunt. 7 of us squeeze in the car to go church. I was really rotten!!!! i slept during service. I feel God is not gonna bless me!!!!! We went to eat, then go Sheryl&Chester's hse to watch 'ALONE' which was another heck of freaky thing. When u watch there with others, it doesnt seem so bad but when u r ALONE in the dark or toilet and u remember this show, it really spooks you to no end.

I left saying i wanted to study but ended up playing instead after hitting the books for just 5 mins. I really cant concentrate while my relatives are here!!!!! Parents came home at night. My bro keeps going out all the time and comes home late. My cousin suggested sumthing funny. Pack his clothes into a bag and throw it out of the hse. I laughed for 5 mins over this.

MONDAY (Supposedly today)

I spent my day in sch quite horribly too. APC results though I may be 1 of the last, i feel kinda glad becuz i did better then what i thought i would get. Juz being happy from your own results without comparing makes out what you are. Cal 2 lesson felt like many years. Break, went to FC6 again to eat and it was quite cheap. $1.20 for 1 egg, sasauge, bun, some coleslaw and fries. Cheap and sumptious i call it. So after all lessons i went home. I was afraid MIP would not be done so i was on standby on my HP. Sum available jerk gave and excuse that he had homework to do and summore swear when i ask him. OK..... im used to this attitude. Wee Siong should know best who it is since he....... betta not say.

Again i keep playing. Study for 1 hour the most. Continue my silent hill game. I got freaked out 3 times. I did sumthing funny everytime i freaked out. I dumped the PSP to my cousin. Seriously this game is freaking scary!!!!!!!!

AE&E test tmr. I dare not say what will happen. I really didnt study whole weekend. I feel scared cuz i didnt understand a single thing teacher was talking about. Next week holiday, 1 week church camp, half a week in Malaysia. Wonder how im going to spend my weekend..... Its busy too.... Friday CIP, Sat Chen Shyan, Denise, Connie birthday party,,,,Sun, SQSS 4C chalet BBQ. Mon, Church camp......... AHHHHH im in a total wreck!!!!!!

TUESDAY

Today is tueday. Now is 12.30am. Im late by half an hour but HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARAD!!!!!!
GTG sleep..... dad woke up and im in trouble!!!! I promise next post would have picts.

2007-12-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

Just before i 4get. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN!!!!! I regretting not singing for u every lesson juz like what u did to me. Hahaha.

AE&E test gone case. Lets not go into further detail. Im a little angry with sum ppl today but i also wont go into detail. Not really at Sharad for shooting me but for sum1 else.

I juz couldnt study today. Ryan, Jianwei, Elijah and all talking cok its so super hard to study but its juz fun being with them on a non-test day. Ok, presentation wasnt very good as i thought. Esp the business block. People juz over-generalise. Saying that business block is aways giving a huge variety of choices but thats not true at all. Not juz in food but u know what i mean right???????? :P ...... I was juz quite disappointed. On the way back from the business block, we all placed a very fun + funny grading/gaming system for those who walk pass us. We juz shouted numbers. For more info, ask me.... hahahahaha.

Ok. Thats bout all for today. My cousins changed ticket to tmr so i've have to get my hse rdy.

2007-12-04T18:58:00.000+08:00

Ok.... im a lazy guy. Test is tmr and im really not prepared. I havent read up anything but only remember some formulas. What am i doing here? Gd qns.

Ytd i saw Edmund in the bus. Long time since I last saw him. We had quite a long chat bout how we are doing. Our whole bus trip from Dover to Toh Guan was spent talking. So basically he seems to be doing well. Im juz kinda shocked when he told me the Majors for SQSS. I wont say who but if those 2 are chosen as leaders, really gd luck to sqss band. He said a new conductor have taken our band at the moment for some reason, seems like it is really collapsing (not cursing them but juz an assumption) .

Met Zihao today, and i thought which wierd guy tap me from behind. Canoing really buff him up. We thought of going to the chalet together next week. I 4get to ask him how his competition.

This and next week would be out last prac, so Im kinda shocked sems ending so fast. It kinda juz seems like last week when we all came back to sch on the first day. So thats juz bout it for today. A string of birthdays cuming up, Ryan tmr, then me, then Sharad, then Chen Shyan, Connie and Denise celebrating theirs together. My cousins from KL coming tmr too. Not sure how I can entertain them.

L@zY

2007-12-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

This is the most lazy weekend i've ever had. I've been playing dota like crazy and learning to use what Elijah told be to use. The Slayer. Quite a good character for first time players like mi. So basically, thats how my weekend is. I really nid a heck of a time to space out instead of projects. Ok so this week is another round 2 of stress.

Stuff coming up in sch:

1) CRS war!!!!!!
2) AE&E test
3) MIP report
4) CPPA prac report
5) Start AE&E project
6) MIP powerpt thing (Dun even know what to do with it)
7) CD hours
8) Psycology and counselling test (IM NOT MENTALLY SICK!!! ITS MY MODULE IN SP!!!!)

Sounds like alot right??? Yup... it indeed is. Im no longer unhappy or angry or 'EMO' anymore at the moment. Im juz wondering how to spend the entire week in chruch camp. Bringing my books to study kinda seems out of the question. 2 weeks to study for big exam and 1 and 1/2 weeks of it is wasted on chruch camp and holidays. So im kinda scared cuz i havent been doing well for anything. I do like joining the others for lunch for a change in sch and go guildhse see them play pool or bowling as well as tok cok. Others as in WS and gangTERS + Ryan and gang. I like them making me laugh with their nonsense.

Ok. Thats bout it for the day. Gotta wake up early tmr since got CRS discussion. Bring laptop and cal book!!!! im going crazy...... I'll be very tired by the end of tmr. Have to go study. This yr and last yr seem so diff. I wasnt studying or anything during the test but this yr i have to put in more effort. Last yr for all the tests we were all aiming to see who can get the lowest in class. I remember me and Zihao got 0 for E-math test. Zh and all were all laughing like siao everytime we fail. This yr is juz totally diff.

Bye for now! (seriously!!)

*Can sum1 teach me how to upload things like picts and new skins? Seeing the manual makes me sian.........

round 2 of stress

Recovering!

2007-11-29T22:54:00.000+08:00

Ok... like i promised.... No more cranky posts! I felt much better now that all the test and reports were over. I did my report till 3.10 and slept at 3.30am yesterday. My dad had to kick me out of bed and i came to sch with black rings. I dozed off quite often during lessons like Mr Quek writing sum eqn on the board all round me turned black. When woke up, he juz finished his eqn.... I am really super tired since i have been sleeping at 2+ or 3am thoe whole week...

I wanna thank most of my frens for encouraging me (I cant name u all..... too many). I know that my previous posts may have been quite 'EMO' or very unlike the real me i behave outsidely. Sorry becuz i was just showing the inside me when im subjected to stress and pressure which causes me to break (MIP). I am not usually like this but its just that i felt a huge difference in the life i had in SQSS and the ones i had in SP. I have not felt like this before so pls forgive me since im quite new to this feeling. I promise to try and make this a happy blog!

Ok... so basically thats bout it. When i remember Wei Mings reply to the APC teacher, i keep laughing like siao. Heres the scenario:

*Siong, Jk, Ming and Kl walk inside the lecture area*

APC teacher: "All those late comers go and sit in front NOW!"

Wei Ming: "What a 'lum pa' man!!!! (Means a**h*le and was said extremely loud)

*All around him laugh like siao!!!!!*

Uh oh!!! my blog has been found!!!!

Stressed

2007-11-28T17:31:00.000+08:00

Ok.... my APC test is a goner seriously. I got careless on last qns, lose 6 marks. 2nd last question i didnt finish, 1 mcq i drew lots. Im not saying this like wad sum1 will say juz to make others think they wont do well...... but this time i really feel juz like what my title says. STRESSED!!!!! I really cant take it anymore... CRS project is pushing me, tests pushing me, 2 formal reports pushing me and i juz cant keep up with my work no matter how much effort i put in. I spent alot of effort in APC but yet i didnt have time to finish. Worst still i had a horrible headache during the test and couldn't think. I tried praying before doing the test so i hope a miracle can happen. I think sum1 who reads this is gonna be quite happy that i wont do well. I really just wanna spend 1 day not doing a single thing.

Another thing i wanna mention. I DO NOT LIKE VENTING ANGER BOUT PPL ON MY BLOG!!!!! IT DIRTIES MY BLOG TO NO END!!!!! what im doing is just expressing my true thoughts. I've started to lose my patience easily over small things and get quite angry even if its for something small. Can u pls understand????? Tests have already ruined my mood so please do not try to agitate me further with your marks and tests esp when they are higher than me cuz i might really not contain myself!!!! Also pride here has got 1 which i hate and i which i like but u exhibit 1 that i hate! If u think this is backstabbing let me tell u its definition.

Backstabbing: To talk behind someone's back without their knowledge or to spread about their bad points to others. Defaming someone due to their character.

Personal pride: To be proud that you have done well or beyond YOUR expectations. Especially when you have touched or exceeded your own expectations. This kind of pride is personal goal based and the kind that i like. Not exacly meant for others to know.

Arrogance pride: This is the pride I hate the most!!!! When you have done well and exceeded yours or other people's expectations especially if you compare your marks and find out you are the best. Example: " Wa lao 40+/50 seh!!!! not as good as some others in the class!!!!" esp when the person next to you got 30/50. Self induced act of humbleness led from personal pride when you COMPARE your marks with others annoys me to no end.

To my dear classmates and friends. Please forgive me if you see me in an angry and unhappy state or i start losing my temper. I've been tremendously stressed out and i seek your understanding. To my group mates or project partners. Kindly do not rush me for work as I always do my part properly and wont miss out anything if you give me time cuz if u rush me, i may not only lose my temper which affects friendrelationship but i will also produce nonsense work for you all. Even if i do not show my anger, it doesnt mean im happy.

I'll try to let this be the last time i do an anger post. I do not always want to be unhappy or make this an unhappy blog.

Very Horrible Mood.....

2007-11-27T16:20:00.000+08:00

Ok... i have been very busy for the past few weeks. I havent got time to blog anything especially since i forgotten to do my report due today and have to chiong like crazy. TEsts coming up and i juz wanna fail them.

Juz as my title says. I was in an extremely horrible mood today so much so that i wanted to punch sum1 on the face. Firstly, my CPPA results, they suxed like hell. I saw that im the last in class... i realli have got anothing to say. I pay attention in class, study like crazy just to be the last in class. I starting losing hope in my results cuz im like giving my all to study and nothing comes out from hardwork. I wonder who created that saying that hardwork brings forth fruit. Its utterly nonsense. That wasnt what actually spoiled my day totally. I would like to thank Farhan and Ryan who really cheered me up a little with their bits of nonsense that made me laugh or at least made me feel much better.

To the 2 ppl who spoiled my day:

A fren is 1 that encourages u in times of trouble and not ruin ppls day. UNDERSTAND???? I really do not like backstabbing ppl but what im doing today is not speaking bout ur bad points to any1 behind ur back juz like what some jerk did to me but im telling u that u behaved like a total jerk today. U made me wanna whack u on the face. U are like indirectly looking down on me and comparing ur results with me. I know im not as clever as u but at least i know i work hard. U are like trying to act humble by saying ur high score is lousy compared to others. WHAT BOUT ME?????? U ARE MAKING ME FEEL DAM WORSE BY SAYING THOSE SHET!!! U went around telling others of my results to hell knows who....... I really hate to say this but i lost total trust in u all of a sudden! Laughing at me with scorn in ur heart indirectly even if u didnt mean to do it. Majority of my day was spoilt by u. U tried to cheer me up even when u know u spoiled my day but let me tell u its no use. Please stop trying to make ppl dislike u with the way u behave. I really hope u stop behaving like this again cuz it pisses ppl off.

To the other who spoiled my day: I really have got nothing to say bout u. I have not mentioned a single word bout u backstabbing me ages ago. Even if i talked to u it doesnt mean that i do not know bout it or have forgiven u. Just as u claimed u do not trust me, same goes for me. U also tried to cheer me today but let me tell u this, i know what u are thinking. You are just looking down on me just like u did to the others. Just like i have said i dont trust u so i would rather u stop acting like u know me well. Maybe you think im am coolheaded and wont blow my top easily but juz to let u know my temper almost exceeded its limit until u went away. U even kept saying today ur results are not as good compared to someone. WILL U PLS STOP COMPARING RESULTS????? U HAVE ALREADY PISSED OTHERS OFF THEIR HEADS LONG AGO WITH WHAT U SAID.

Thursday 22 November 2007

2007-11-22T21:37:00.001+08:00

Ok...CEM is over!!!!!! Im so glad i dun feel like touching it for the next month or so....Sorry for my previous post bout Ryan.... im editing it now.....hahahaha... (I didnt understand what it was until u guys told me)....... Though CEM is over, im still quite busy for next week and next next week. I juz have a very horrible headache from sitting under the sun while eating. I also tried to do something which every1 found me stupid by trying to take Farhan's $1 under the whole bunch of planks with a pair of chopsticks. Im gonna try do blog editing but yet im too lazy to learn. At least i have a gd fren like Wee Siong agree to help me. Anyway, thats bout my week. Apart from that our new CRS teacher came to class, she doesnt seem to be fierce but i got a feeling that class may bully her as time passes. Yup ok... thats all bout sch this week. Chester's Birthday gift.... havent thought of 1 yet. 26 Nov hope he stands on a chair and sings his own B'day song.

Forgive me if you find me too offensive if u read whats below and pls tell me if I did anything wrong. This is written due to seriousness on my part. Sorry to show my serious side since i rarely am like that. But if you think its directed at you u r actually dead wrong!

Theres juz something that i observe and wanna mention since months ago till now. I was kinda hesitant to do so but i dun wan any misunderstandings between me and any1 but i juz wanna say this not becuz i have a grudge against any1 or anything. Its juz that i truly feel that if this goes on, we'll be destroying ourselves eventually. I juz felt that we are all starting to change more towards one another. I must admit that im guilty of this. Trust, respect, friendship bonds and loyalty. That which we need a real long time to build and maintain can be destroyed within seconds. You juz have to agree with me on this. I juz noticed that this will lead not juz u but me to destruction. By the end, we find that we are all going solo. Probably few of u realised this but this feeling of distrust is spreading in ourselves like poison and we are not even aware we are dying and by the time it is too late to regret. I muz repeat that the reason im writing this isnt becuz i am against any1 but its becuz i really dun want to lose trust and friendship with me. Im really afraid that will happen and its even worse if it becomes numb.

I once had this kind of feeling towards some1 b4...... but the end of 4 years i find that the poison of distrust had crept inside me and eaten me. It caused me to feel as if the person never existed b4! Even when he talked i felt nothing, no feelings of hatred nor friendship. Thats the worst kind of feeling ever happened to me. This year, i am really fearful that history will repeat itself. As much as possible though it will be hard, i wanna forgive and apologize to those who backstabbed me even if i did say wrong things about them or my character as hurt them such. Therefore, I hope u will likewise do the same to not only me but to others. I hope we can all be united as friends.

2007-11-17T13:43:00.000+08:00

Ok... heres how i think im spending my day. Studying Cal 2 and not understanding anything so its as good as not studying at all. Quite stressful week ahead. Ryan didnt (GO) sch for quite a few days and almost our whole class miss his nonsense. Kinda quieter without him during those days.

Revival of this blog takes a month... gotta relink every1 again. Im too lazy to change my settings. To those who read this pls support my blog!!! ty.

Saturday 16 Nov 2007 01:57

2007-11-17T00:33:00.000+08:00

OK... i kinda lost for words. i really dont know how to continue blogging but i know for 1 year if i dont do it, i might burst and start doing crazy things. I got a long story to tell but anyway, heres my week:

1) Busy for tests, studying of cuz
2) Got 2 formal reports
3) Start tutorials
4) Learning to play dota
5) waiting for manga to come out.

Basically thats the nonsense. MIP i muz say i shouldnt have study too hard cuz i'll go crazy. Whole class cheated anyway.... My interview for mentoring club is hopeless case. I attitude that guy and he keep asking me cool down and so there goes another CCA.... And so im having a busy weekend.

Basically i have been wondering whether i should blog it out here anot. Anyway, Sharad has been telling me things that i ought to be doing now that backstabbing has occured. Hes really a gr8 guy to ask for advice. Now that i think of it, THAT may occur 1 day. 30% chance since im only first yr. 2 more yrs to go. I wont give the scenerio today but i'll juz tell what Sharad told me and i wont forget.

There are 3 ways to play chess. First is to charge ur troops without thinking. Second is to wait for the opponent to make his move then only u start thinking and then moving. Third (obviously the best way to play chess!) is to plan what ur oppponent is gonna do and predict moves b4 they act. And im only thinking this situation at level 1. I basically cant go to level 3 becuz i cant be that much of an a**h*le but its better safe than sorry. (Dont worry if you dont understand what im saying becuz u soon will 1 day.)

Im too lazy to blog!!!!! Gotta take sum time to revive this blog again...... Looking back, i really miss SQSS.

A whole new year (resurrection)

2007-11-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

Ok... after a whole dam long year + 1 month, i have juz decided to retype my blog stuff again. Though i may be sick of it again, well i juz do what I like, look back at what i did, and think im stupid again.

For starts, i went to JJC during first 3 months, or rather 2. Quit halfway by juz walking out. It didnt and i repeat, didnt!!! leave much of an impact on me. Life there seriously... oops there is no life there or rather not much. Joined band and when i found i was the only guy in my section, i didnt attend anymore. Juz to remember frens in JJC who leaved much of an impact on me i'll juz mention bout 10 names regardless of whether they remember me or not. Melvin, Liang yu, Jason, Bing Xiang, Thomas, Rebekah, Hui hui. I think thats bout it. Anyway, i had 1 heck of a tough time reconsidering to remain or go Poly. My final choice was SP. i really didnt like life in JJC. its too typical school based.

Ok.... choosing poly was my option. I kinda left JJC a little happy but sad. cuz 1 of my JJC fren called me a f***er for leaving. Oh well... i really dun have much to say but i muz say i really enjoyed spending time with u guys and thats all i liked in JJC.

1st phase of my poly life was tough. I hated flag day!!!! Me, Selvan, Spencer, and an ITE grad in spencer's class whos name i forgotten, wandered around. I seriously hated begging. i got glared at and scolded and gave up after that. I rather do sum odd jobs and be given donation rather than anything like this. Guess how much i collected in the end???? only $4+. Lets not care bout that now. Poly life is actually much better than JC life in terms of social life. Making frens is much easier, either that or i've changed. Academically, it sure is tough. Don't ever think poly is easier than JC. Academically, Poly is much worse. 1st semester, i mugged hard to be 1 of the last in class. Maybe i'll be top in other classes..... anyway, I'm juz starting to study again... will i make it to U????? thats for God to decide. Not trying to be proud here but juz wanna achieve my goals. Second semester, i've become more open to my other classmates and life is kinda more colourful than before. I also started seeing sum of their true colours, sum positive and negative. I have gotten to know who ur true frens really are when u are down. Those whom i didnt really talk to i've started to become closer to them.

Another thing i've started to wanna talk bout but i wont do it today cuz i havent got much time.Topic: Backstabbing. i'll leave that for another day.

I think i made much better frens in poly especially in my class. As usual, 1 thing that hasnt changed much bout me is that im shy and blur.

Ok... i'll pass for today. im kinda busy studying for test and im sick. Heard that Ryan is in serious medical condition so hope he gets well. Cya tmr bloggy.

No title

2006-10-02T17:56:00.000+08:00

Well.... juz a quick entry. Managed to survive my prelims and overall isnt bad but anyway, felt that i might have been quite TYCO that out of the so many things i studied for all the subjects, all came out. For SS.... i doubt O lvl will be that tyco again. Well, cant afford to be too act.... and then slack but of cuz have to continue studying.

Anyway, for the short break, i wanna see finish shaman king manga!!!!! haiz.... so sad they never post all out. I've begin to luv that manga cuz its interesting. Anyway, i wan to go KL for a break and relax and unfortunately, i have to bring my books and i think im the first person to bring books overseas to study but well, if theres no extra classes this fri or sat, byebye. Ah well,may have to miss an episode of shaman king but its ok thx to U-tube. Every1 have been encouraging me to go JC but actually i dun feel like. I starting appreciating all my frenz around me and i cant actually bear to part with them. (Maybe take Os next year again... hahas)

I wonder what we'll do after the Os end. Maybe I'll find a job so that i can buy sumthing i want. Anyway, i have to stop dreaming and start studying and i'll remember to always be humble. I'll have to start torture now. The atmosphere in my class is now on studying mood + dark and gloomy not like last time. Also, alot of things has happened this year and changed some of classmates life. Whatever it is, keep studying and dun slack. hehez...

The next entry is when i feel like it.....

Tension

2006-09-20T22:47:00.000+08:00

Wa... blogging sure is boring. Juz for update... im getting and going nuts!!!!!! The prelims make me go nuts. English, gone..... science gone...... next Os gone.... Im juz getting tired day by day and having to study daily makes me sick. I juz wanna take a chopper to school and chop the examiners.....haha... im not crazy yet.

Im blogging cuz im bored anyway.... so im juz waiting for Os to be over and im watching shaman king soon. Anyway, no1 is in the mood for playing at this time of the year. Same goes for me also.

Forgive me for the short one. Maybe i'll throw in 1 more after the prelims is over. Anyway, no1 is interested in reading blogs or whatsoever.... same goes for me. Juz not in the mood.

After a long day

2006-09-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

Believe it or not, im starting to be more and more sick of blogging. Its really boring but anyway, i continue and try to be short with what i write.

Hmm, forgetting when i last stopped blogging. Starting from the whole of holidays, the whole week was science and english and i find it very boring. I've got no time to finish my things especially my chem booklet.... shouldnt have ordered it. Truly suffering with pure subjects and also humanities... what am i doing!!!!!! Nothing for it.... On thursday, i went to JP with Xinmin and Sufyan to buy a gift for Justin. Lol... we spent hours and know why? We went and stop almost at every shop like me looking for manga and so on.... In the end, we landed in a gift shop and i wont comment on the gift.. hehez.... Was a little embarassed cuz of Toy'rs.... anyway, we managed to hunt something.

Then on the day of his party, the whole day i did not even want to study. I must be crazy. Went to meet Sq, Ron, Ben, and waited for Sufyan... and bla bla bla.
Then met up with Hao, Yx and Khairul. Ooo... his house is so big! + got a percussion set!!!! Then came our party, BBQ and stuff like that. Quite a number of our classmates and i feel class party is better then anything else. Then we play in the swing and see-saw. Then eating, wasnt that bad but all the good stuff came like seafood only after all of us finished eating...Grrr.. not fair. Anyway, we drank..lol... abit of beer. And also the birthday cake made by Justin's sister i think..... Tasted quite gd. Then after going back to his house for a while, I left for home for only 1 reason.... Shaman King!!!!

Well on sat, juz tuition and then i slept cuz i was tired. And so on.... well nothing more, getting quite boring....

Thats all..... Next entry would be, when i feel like it...

Wishes and Dreams?

2006-09-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

Oh well... today was rather boring. About 6 hours of remedial Physics and Chemistry. Its killing me or rather all of us. Im rather afraid of practical cuz of foiling it and it affecting my overalls... so yup. During Physics, so many idiots keep talking and it juz pissed me off!!! So so so noisy and i wondered why Liu never go into their ears and shout. Cannot even concentrate! Cant u ppl feel the stress or any tension? 'O's and Prelims, no effect or so it seems. Anyway, went with Quan, Master Hao, Yuxue, Ronnie, Kuong hing, to Yuhua village to makan and then went to play a while in the playground. It sort of brought me back to the old times where i remember playing with my old buddies in that old playground everytime b4 PSLE remedial begins. Anyway, we juz played along , then have to go back for school. Then came back, sleep and fetched Quan to my new tuition with all the ppl. Then i came home i juz cant study, i juz feel like banging my head through the wall. Then got so much stress and problems that I cant even bring myself to say it on a blog. I'll try for now......

1st problem: Something that made me feel hopeless... (to do with Dec)
2nd problem: Im juz rather stupid... seeing but shutting up!!! Impossible dream
3rd problem: O lvls.... if i can get across this, then =D

I dropped my dreams and wishes. I saw them shatter into a million tiny pieces and threw those fragments away...

Wishes

2006-09-03T15:22:00.000+08:00

Well.... managed to survive through yesterdays long hours of physics. It juz was so sianz.... Then while walking home, Xinmin called up to me from behind. She told me alot of things and then asked me? How is **** coping with it? or sumthing like that. I said doesnt show outwardly but im sure **** is suffering inside. But for now, anyway to ****, dun care bout it. Os are drawing near and focus on it and not let anything else distract u.

Then went for tuition, i basically become nuts cuz i dunno what i was doing and i juz felt so bored. Then got this 3 chios sit in front of me... hehez. But they so noisy that i cant concentrate. Next time should go earlier and skip physics so that got more concentration.

After that my bro took our family to sizzlers where we eat like crazy till my mum had to stop me. I stole a handful of sweets at the counter, than left for prayer meeting..... After that we play soccer, and my team tio trashed like...... of cuz la! so many kids in my team and the other team all big ppl including my bros. My team so inactive. Then i kena tripped and injured my palm and step barefooted on those very very sharp stones and full of blisters on my leg. Well.... throughout, I was juz wishing that.............. hahas....... wont let anything distract me first but by then may be too late. Well, today was juz so-so but was very sleepy. Thats bout all.....

Juz keep wishing, wishing and wishing. Continue even though my wish is unrealistic...........

Back!!!

2006-09-02T00:50:00.000+08:00

Hahas... got used to not updating the stuff in here. Anyway, so many things i wanna talk about but cuz its so long, i forget. Well, forgive me for my bad memory but i'll try my best to recall.

Well, on wednesday we received our report card after Liu slammed the door behind us for making too much noise. Fortunately, this isnt O lvl or I die. For my results, the scores are either very good or flunk to the core but i wont say. Then also received e-math O lvl 2006.... Then i juz start to hate going for that tuition, not only becuz of the atmosphere but i juz feel the change in attitude my tuition teacher towards me. Well, maybe i can quit for a month and save $145. Anyway, im currently studying at my own sweet time. Also, received a party invitation from Justin which im at a loss. Firstly, no1 ever had a party in a sooo long time. Secondly, im an introvert and i have a problem with clothes.... i juz hate wearing new clothes and its either very very formal or very informal. Thirdly, wah!!!! so near prelims, u all still can enjoy. The fourth, im the worst present giver in the world. Anyway, im not sure to go or not but since Quan encouraged me, why not? Anyway, thxs Justin!

On thursday, which is yesterday, didnt buy anything for teachers cuz if i buy for 1 and not the other, wouldnt it be unfair? Moreover, so many ppl giving liao so might as well..... Sien Quan played a nice joke on Mrs Wong by putting out his hand and saying happy teachers day then draw back and do clown things which make wong whack him... HAHAZ!!! Joke of the day. Then Yuxue tried on Mrs Liang and cuz she saw what Quan did, she counter attacked back on him!!! hahaha.... Came home and slept for 3 hours like a pig. I noticed that whenever i take a nap, i will wake up worse than b4 so in future, i try not to take afternoon naps. Missed tuition for the same purpose and studied at night. Then watched shaman king. Its getting more and more boring!!! Plz show up something like starting the second match!! Anyway, waiting for bleach and naruto manga to come out!

And today, oops... maybe its not today cuz its 12.30am. Anyway, friday.... Ate a late breakfast, went to meet Quan next block, went to Ronnie's house then to meet Yuxue at JE. We brought stone bags and ate at KFC. Then went to Mr Ang's house to study having some of the china gang to pick us up at 7-11 in Jurong Point. Then went to Angs house, not bad, quite a grand house though it is in HDB. We all do paper 2 for 2006 e math. Then saw the cat... so well trained + fear strangers like us. After China gang left, Sean and company came too. Claimed that he lost his way cuz he helped me to buy cup noodles...haha..
very funny indeed. Anyway thx Sean for his help and Enzali for her snacks. Then we 4 left at 6.30, go JP walk..... was juz wishing that..................... oh well... nvm... it didnt happen anyway. The chances were like 1 to 1000000000000 that it will happen. Anyway, we went to JE then go the comic shop which i didnt know though i stay around jurong cuz i repeat, i dun go out often!! im a homely guy who slacks and rots at home. Then went back home while they go Rons house. Didnt wanna join them cuz im not close with S cube ppl except those from my class. Then went home and ate everything including the roof. Was juz hungry.... then tried to study Geog. Making my own notes now!!! Then study till Shaman King started.....O!!! i juz love it!!! Anna!!! ur so cool!!!! slapping Hao on his face... hahaha. Then after that anime, went to do what im doing now!!!! Dread tomorrow. 2 and 1/2 hours of physics!!!! I juz wanna sleep more too. Im deprived of sleeping long hours!

Well, thats about it. 40mins of blogging is tiring. Anyway, im too lazy to make facsinating changes to this blog . Muz do this and that.... maybe i'll change it after Os. hahahas... will blog again after a longer time!

A notice to all

2006-08-28T18:05:00.000+08:00

Im not gonna blog too often.... makes it become sianz.... i think I'll do it as and when I like it. Starting from yesterday, I felt that nothing exactly was interesting. All there ever would be is study and study and nothing more. Beats the crap out of me, I hate seeing another book but I'll do it for future's sake and nothing more. I'll make sure karang guni man pays me more than $5 for all my papers and books!!!!

Well anyway, school today was soooo..... boring. Talked lots of rubbish with Khairul on physics. Then nothing more, didnt get shot by Liu. Hahahas..... Anyway, im juz so sick of studying and i wanna bond with my com after the Os and find a new game... Os results out so early!!!!! not enough time to relax. That marks the day of my future, really!!! Dun remind me anything bout the results after the Os... im really gonna play myslef out like spooking myself with silent hill or maybe juz finding a job. When i heard that results out so early, i would think if the results will spoil my week or make my week. Anyway, my auntie always says this when i tell her i wanna get a job: "Winwin going to work?? How can a baby work???" Then i say to myself, lost............

Anyway, I am now taking a break playing GTA San Andreas, collecting all red colour bikes including the pizza man's bike. Hahas.....

Reminder: Blogging would be less often!!!!! Only when i like it.

Day Spoiled

2006-08-27T00:00:00.000+08:00

A sequence of spoiler events occured today. I wouldnt actually say its alot... only 2. I'll juz keep it short...

Where: In school during physics
What time: 9+ am
What happen: Liu took mine and Khairul's paper for checking.
Why: Cuz he thought we cheated
What really happen: We juz talked during a test
Consequences: I didnt cheat, i dun care if he tears my paper or shout at us.
Moral: Dont talk to any1 during a test. + liu is unreasonable

Then came the second 1. After tuition, i went to sleep then after that....

Where: At prayer meeting
What time: 9+ pm
What happen: Tim fell down and was badly injured
Why: Drain was open, no cover
What actually happen: Skidded and fell cuz of that
Conseqences: Mood for catching spoiled, his dad red hot, no more catching...
Moral: Dont play catching at night.

Cuz of these 2 events, my day was ruined. I dun hate liu but i think he is too unreasonable bout that. Anyway, i dun really care if he throws me out of his lesson, tear my paper or shout at my year but it will make me loathe his lessons. Moreover, im not alone. Then the second, Chester, Ernest and Tim will be grounded from playing at night liao. If they would be, so would I. Cant really study liao, got not much mood. To tearing my time table, I'll take that into consideration. But i dun study for the sake of my teachers or parents, its my future so i wont give a dam bout them liao.

The sky turns grey, the tears stream down from the sky and I lie in the grass dreaming... and so on..... forever more.......

A normal day

2006-08-25T17:02:00.000+08:00

Man... i juz keep saying the same things over and over again. Its juz the same in school, no changes, more tests more homework, and MORE....problems.... The day is juz too boring and study after study makes me sick. I wanna take a permanent rest from the Os and im sure that goes the same for every1. The digimon book Azri had wasnt what i had in mind, i wanted the one about the first series!!!

Anyway, I went for lunch at IMM with my mum and bro and saw Zihao, ngoh, Kelvin and some others.. Then went for tuition. have to go twice..... Juz a normal day!!!

Relaxing day

2006-08-24T19:19:00.000+08:00

Hahas... im not that much in a mood to study today. I tired studying in school during the free periods. I concentrated enough for today, though i will start work later 2night. Anyway, sch today was juz as per normal.

After coming home. headed for the com and watch Shaman king until now. Hahas... so nice... watching how Pailong was killed to be a zombie serving Tao Jun.... hahas... truly a nice anime!!!! Im looking forward to Azri bringing his Digimon book tomorrow. Juz love digimon too, all the monsters so cute....

Anyway, im slacking for now.... wheee!!!!

Stresser and more stress

2006-08-23T17:31:00.000+08:00

Sch today was juz as per normal, trying to study and hope to make an improvement in what i do. Anyway, so many of u are trying to find out who X is...im sorry i cant tell or i cant let u know cuz i think its bad to gossip and backstab and for friendship sake, i cant afford to let u guys know. Also, juz dun try finding out plz cuz i feel it juz isnt right. I used X is becuz i dun wan all of u to start hating that person or accuse me for gossip.... so juz dun try knowing.

Anyway, im loaded with homework to the extent that i havent have got time to spare even as im typing now. After this thing, im going to start on my english homework, i hate english homework.

Haha... i actually wanna ratter on but i havent got time so... sry....

A day...

2006-08-21T21:56:00.000+08:00

Well, every day is juz like the same. Anyway, Xinmin.... ur so smart to guess it correctly. Thought it is quite hard to know since i dun seem to dislike that person. Anyway, please keep it a secret.. dun tell any1.. hahas.... Anyway, i wont mention X again cuz X really is irritating, behave like the smartest person on eath, always showing off. I wonder whether its my fault for influencing X cuz he wasnt like this last time. I also think its not very nice to stab sum1 from the back so i will from now on shut up. I also actually do want X to change but its abit impossible so i will juz get on with my life and act like life is normal.

Anyway, sch is juz as per normal and nothing interesting but every day of sch makes me fear the Os more. Sien Quan juz keeps getting caught for doing sumthing in the lab.. hahas... Zihao gets caught for eating M&Ms hahas.... Then Mr Liu shout at Shanker across the whole canteen and made every1 shut up!!! that was fun.....he deserved it for not coming to school anyway and come after lesson is over.......

Yup, thats bout it.... I juz hate irritating ppl and O lvls!!!!!!

What am i doing???

2006-08-20T20:31:00.001+08:00

Yup.. follow my title. I really dunno what im doing. Im juz not fufiling my time table especially for my humanities. With 1 less subject, i have to rely heavily on the others but humans... i dun follow my time table for that and i juz keep failing test and ..ARRGGHHH!!!!! what am i doing? Seriously im now a lost soul.

I tell myself i cant afford to waste anymore time but i juz am. Cant keep up with what im doing now cuz i dunno what im doing.... Im juz getting dumb as days go by........ My whole class too doesnt really seem bothered by the Os. Is that what affects me???

Nothing...

2006-08-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

Well... nothting in particular happened today. Sch juz as normal and also very boring. I felt so tired and sleep for 3 hours and waste so much time. Juz had another dream about sch.. then last night, a dream that i fought a robber and we fight with paper cutter and i woke up and found my teeth sunk on the pillow....

Juz wonndering how to study humanities like geog....

Haiz.....

2006-08-17T17:07:00.001+08:00

2 sickening things happened. Firstly, X irritated me and caused me to think more bout my oral as well as think that X is more selfish, only care bout oneself bout not bother bout others. If u read my blog earlier i mentioned something about X though I did not say who it was. Another thing that made me feel painful was i forced myself to tell liang lao shi that im not retaking MT and she said " If you think that u cant improve or only move up by 1 grade, I suggest you put in your effort in your other subjects and do well for the others. No one can tell if the end of yr paper is going to be hard." So anyway, i decided not to retake.

I am now being bugged by the oral results and really dun wanna get another lousy grade for english. CL thrown away, now have to rely on english. Anyway, while going home, Me, Zihao, Quan, Xue, Jestyn, played the Narnia game and, hahahaha.....Yuxue kena!! Wondering what would happen to him if he went in and really disappeared! Quan say he will faint.

Anyway, going to push myself at this final moment and really hope to do well for oral...Xinmin the highest for our group and the worst thing is that she is juz ahead of me.... scared that my results get pulled down by her cuz thats her chance to slaughter me. So, going to study hard now!

Dooms day

2006-08-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

Well... sch today was juz as normal juz that liang lao shi came to me after sch and ask me to decide to retake or not, well..... i think i better not retake cuz i only can push it 1 grade up and risk my other subjects. Not worth it.

Then at 2, oral english begins. Haha... we sort of cheated but anyway, 2 examiners with such a stern face. Ang said our room was the strict 1. Juz pray that i can get a distinction for english oral cuz my CL already in the drain i dun want the same for eng. Overheard the examiners saying Xinmin was a very good candidate....

Came home and sleep, too tired to go tuition.....

Pissing Day

2006-08-15T16:52:00.000+08:00

Havent pass up my consent form to retake or not. Still wondering whether to retake or not. Well, english oral is coming soon had the worst practise ever. I am scared actually and also i mention b4 bout X in my earlier part of my blog. (Maybe i did, or didnt.) Anyway, X juz luv to talk bout himself and no1 else. No wonder he is being disliked and is coming up to become another bragger.

Anyway, thats no. 1 thing that piss me off. Second was oral practice. Went with Yun yu, Evelyn, Teresa, Xinmin, Sufyan. During practice, 2 extras, Vernon and uthaya were so dam irritating and my oral practice was not successful, total waste of time. Teresa was talking to shanker and keep laughing, shanker kept interupting with rubbish, Vernon gave rubbish marks and asked nonsensical convo qns. This practice was enough to seriously piss me off however, i kept calm. wasted my time. Hope i dont get examiners like that tmr!!

Already not in a very gd mood and this kind of thing can still go on. To make up for that time, i got to study now like mad to fufill my time table.

:)

2006-08-14T17:29:00.000+08:00

Oh... thxs to those who brighten my day. I went to school quite gloomy and then my classmates well.... made me back to normal.... hahaz. Thxs to u all.

Nothing interesting actually juz that after physics, walked home with Sq, Yx, Sufyan, Ronnie, and basically myself. Haha...Sq jammed the lift when Yu Xue going to Ronnie's hse.... hahaha. Imagine 2 little kiddies stuck in the lift! Then they came down to 1st storey and chase us... I kena caught while Quan hide.

Currently doing my sch hw and juz thinking of resitting the Os without attending lessons... though confirm get F9...

Sorry

2006-08-13T21:36:00.000+08:00

Too busy to blog. Have to study. Will put in only when I got the mood to do so.

Still sad

2006-08-12T19:23:00.000+08:00

Haiz..... i felt im 1 of the worst... so many got better than I. 1 less subject for L1R5..... if i cant manage other subjects well..... im a goner. Had a little oral practice 2day then went for tuition. I feel theres no more time but i dunno what to do... Im still at a loss but my mum says my CL results are gd enough to get to JC. How to count such a huge no. in L1R5? Very Afraid of the prelims too cuz if i get higher than 19, im gonna lose hope in the Os and ppl who never see me cry b4 may get a chance to do so......

Really pushing myself hard...

No more playtime!

2006-08-11T15:56:00.000+08:00

Haiz...... dunno what to say for CL results. Wondered to retake or not. Though i didnt do as well ask i thought, parents are satisfied, CL teacher expected me to get D7 or E8 as I NEVER in my sec 3 and 4 have i passed CL. I must say I cant retake anymore as I saw that i juz passed my oral, muz be reading. No point retaking especially when i didnt do well for oral. If i dun retake i muz do as well as Azri (Dream on). I felt quite upset though again they all juz mocked at those who didnt do well as they went off happily with 3s and 4s. Those whom i thought get C got a B. 4 or 5 who i thought get a B get a C.

I must say truthfully i wanted to cry but couldnt cuz im sick. Thx to CL teacher's encouragement, i didnt. As only 1 failure in the whole sch, thank God i scrape through by passing. Needless to say, for those who dunno my marks can already guess how much I got. Cant afford to play soccer with them cuz I have to study full speed liaoz......

Gloomy and boring and...haiz.....

2006-08-10T16:01:00.000+08:00

Quite boring 2day..... didnt feel like playing or studying.... suddenly i just felt quite sad. Dun wanna say what made me upset or what happen for i might die if i open my mouth. Juz woke up in the morning and juz felt quite.... haiz....

I just woke up in the morning and look around... im at home... though national day sang yesterday this is home truly... but whats juz around me? myself, my bed and my pillows and no1 else. Felt quite lonely and.... well.... im all by myself. Lonely...yup, thats what i felt. i thought back of my whole secondary sch life and concluded... im neither here nor there, im not unwanted nor wanted. You get what i mean??? A strange loneliness I've never felt b4 though u all may juz say " Hey you're not alone, Im your friend..." and stuff like that but thats not the point. I just feel this emotion can never be described. I looked back and thought, I always seem happy in school but I'm not as happy inside. Though im a guy and seem happy all the time, im also a human... izzit ok to cry? I wont force myself to be happy all the time cuz i dun wanna cheat myself.

Anyway... Im now juz trying to relax and of cuz feel tensed when I picture myself taking my results.... Whether i really cry or smile depends on tomorrow.

Happy Birthday Singapore

2006-08-09T23:17:00.000+08:00

Well....A little boring today. Woke up in the MORNING cuz of my clogged nose. Bye Bye to sore throat and flu but hello to cough and block nose. Morning as in 3.00am feeling very energetic and guess what dumb thing i did? A-Math...How stupid! Till bout 4.30 then i went back and sleep. Again i dreamnt bout erm....me, my bro, a mysterious person (cant say who), and another mysterious person called Michelle...who on earth is that?????? Dun wanna go into detail but dreaming of ppl i dun even know..... this is funny!

Woke up early in the morning feeling so cold (of cuz...its raining) then slack and study a bit for the whole day. Then after that went to chester's house and of cuz ernest asked me to bring the Silent Hill PS1 game... then our families watched NDP till 8+. I must say its a very brillant performance. Then gals occupy the TV till 10+...so i only play for like 15mins of Silent Hill. Wahahahaha.... what a perfect time to play this game, exceptionally Sp00ky game. Then the 2 of them keep hiding their faces, sort of made me wanna laugh but also i must say quite scary like suddenly and monster juz fly in and grab u..wahaha what a lovely game, guts testing. I was scared at first but not with lights on and ppl around....

30% day spoiled cuz im sick and another 20% cuz of... Argghhhh CL Os results!!!!! gonna watch Shaman King at 11.30........ Hope my mum stop telling others bout my dream of CL results to others..... hahaha

Day RUINED

2006-08-08T15:01:00.000+08:00

Haiz...... what a day...spoiled by juz myself. Had such a terrible flu, sore throat, runny nose. Spoiled my mood for the WHOLE morning and afternoon. My plans for eating chips and cookies just dashed by these virus. Was too frustrated and cant vent my anger anywhere especially went i cant even have a peaceful sleep cuz of my throat....oh well, juz hope to be well by tmr. Im also scared by my CL results coming back on friday. Lol...no more dreams...I hope...

Juz felt that 2day in sch would have been better if i could talk more. Now i wonder if i can go tuition or not. I look back and think how my tuition that i thought was so discreet and like no1 knew bout it (or so i thought) occupied by 1/2 or bout there by the S cube. Oh well..... At least more company.

Thats bout all except i feel quite unhappy 2day.

A starting to get sick day

2006-08-07T16:29:00.000+08:00

Oh... starting to have a sore throat..hope to get well tmr. Its the carnival tmr and i think its confining ppl especially stations. Anyway, what can we buy with 4 $0.50 coupons. Oh well.... today is sure boring maybe cuz of my throat.

For yesterday and today

2006-08-06T18:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I was too busy to write anything. Was quite busy yesterday.... Had to attend 2 tuition in a row and then study like.... Then went for prayer meeting and then after that play soccer.... EVERY night when i sleep i always HAVE dreams. Its always bad. I dreamt that Mr Li YunDong gave our CL 'O' lvl results out in class and every1 got A1 except for me and Sean. I got C6 and Sean got E8. Fantastic dream eh?

Then today also another dream. after coming back from chruch, i went to sleep. Dreamt that whole toh guan road buildings collapsed except for my side one. All opposite the main road buildings collapse like UNO Stacko. Then worse thing was only me, my bro and my mum at home. The earthquake didnt affect our
side or harm us but we were so worried for others. Then suddenly, my cousin and another uncle from KL just appeared in our door and could still joke. Suddenly my father and big bro came back. Then we suddenly became refugees and started bathing in places where got taps while exploring the ruined buildings. Wierd... jus hope that it will stop.

Another dream bout the Os was 2 days ago that again! CL results in the hall i got a F9 while every1 passed. SO IRRITATING!!!!!!!

Juz hope to stop dreaming.

My National Day plan

2006-08-04T18:15:00.000+08:00

Hmm... my national day plan. I intend to feast myself and watch NDP on TV. So sad, no tickets. NDP without tickets to me isnt national day. Potato chips, cookies and milk... Anyway again nothing happened in school today. Just couldnt study but kept reading books and then play catching with Kh, Yx, Zi hao, Quang. but other than that, nothing much 2day.

Tiring and dumb day

2006-08-03T16:50:00.000+08:00

3 Tests in a row, who isnt tired? CH always spoil my mood. Then another irritating thing that irks me is the CCA thing. All based on attendance and participation? CRAP! SQ and others got B3 for staying in scouts for so many years while China? just 2 or 3 years make them A1 or 2. And what about band? Everyone got E8 including Malcom just for going band 3 times a week for 8 or 9 hours a day. Even Quang who has no CCA gets same as us... how fair.... Anyway, A is not possible for me cuz i escaped band for abut 1 month.....

Lifes all bout likes and dislikes and also being bias. Hate u, fail you regardless of the so-called meritocracy.

Wondering, what it is all about... life... for mine that is....

Sianz.....

2006-08-02T21:49:00.000+08:00

So busy liao.... very little time to blog. So many test and then...... PE lessons are BORING. After math remedial, saw the 2 triangular parties talking to each other outside sch gate. Wonder how i would feel if i were him....I might probably hantam the other party.

Life's Boring!!!!

Sianz....

2006-08-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

Another day... started on my time table. Xinmin knows the 1/2 abSinC by the ther party. Wonder what Quans part 2 is......

Just another day...

2006-07-31T16:49:00.000+08:00

Hmm... seems like it truned back to normal. Just almost got persecution by Wee for talking to SQ. Oh... National Day just next week, dunno what i can do on that day. Cutting botak proposal may be changed so.... Nothing spectacular or funny thing happen today. Just another day.... Have to plan my O lvl time table at night.....

Haizz.....

2006-07-30T14:54:00.000+08:00

Too busy to blog yesterday. I accidently threw away my mum's $10 worth of food into the big chute thinking it was rubbish. Wanted to retrieve it but the chute was too big. Haiz... feel so wasted. Parents laughed at me instead of scolding me.

Im too occupied to blog. Maybe next time.....

A gloomy

2006-07-28T12:59:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder, who is my friend?
I realise Im the only one left
Just as I thought, i hate this feeling
But I know, this happens everyday
I'll get over this soon, or so i thought.

Quan came to class quite gloomy today. Mentioned that he had frenz trouble. Preparing to flunk all the class test, just dunno why that the whole atmosphere in our class made every1 or only me feel wierd and sumhow unhappy. It just wasnt like this last week, whats with this week? Quan was involved in a..... 1/2 ab SinC.... He seemed to be having social problems and i envy him for that. Not only him but Sum1 else (I cant say) is being abandoned by almost every1 and doesnt know but i dun feel sry for him. I must admit, people change drastically. Maybe "once upon a time" is coming to the last phrase, "The End".

Lousier Day

2006-07-27T16:36:00.001+08:00

Dunno why i feel so wierd the whole day. Felt unhappy the whole time after recess. Really dunno what this feeling is, though i may seem happy outwardly the whole day and talk non-stop, I relly dunno what im feeling. Juz felt this funny feeling which tells me i shouldn't be feeling what im feeling now. Maybe im tricking myself to behave happily so that others wont know im actually not happy.

Life is just so wierd. Just feel happy when ur mind tells u so and sad whenever you feel like it.

Juz another day

2006-07-26T18:22:00.000+08:00

Hmm Khai passed me what he did not wan OM tay to know....(Obvious what it is ). Hid it for 1 whole day till end of sch. Then during lunch, Spencer and SQ were i think he worse victims of the slapping hand game... lol... hand bleed leh.... Then Quan try that game on me, that really hurt!! hands so red. Then stayed back after Remedial to be tutored by Wong. Me n Jimmy. Then halfway through, came the Wee and dialogue + nagging sessions began.

Wee: 19 oct have sub science practical, and ya the graduation of sec4 bla bla bla...(Dunno what she talking.)

Wong: Ya lor, sec 4 make me so upset i dunno what graduation they should be having. (Wong grinned at me...)

Wee: Ya lor... Oh ya ah... This boy here* ah, (*refering to me) , how u find him in class?

Wong: Hmm... this boy ah.... always doing sumthing funny 1...

Wee: Ya... he and Sien Quan ah... always.....

Wong: Ya. so i seperate them in my math class.

Wee: Ya lor. the 2 little boys ah SQ and Alwin ah... bla bla bla....

Hmm.... that was sure dumb. Everytime the wee comes, something naggy always happen. Dumb way she lecture Khairul, like: " You wan to do s*****g not in sch la, do it on weekends...." Instead of discouraging, its the opposite...

Everyday is always as usual, alot of hw, sumtimes cpoy in sch, then make us all Os students so tired......

Another day at sch

2006-07-25T15:00:00.000+08:00

First qns i asked Khai when i came to class.... How ah? ok anot? He said that he was let off. Anyway schs juz too boring. During e math lesson, Khai told Xinmin and Zihao the same old story adventure... lol!! Just as i was leaving class, saw then Quan and Yu xue posted the list of ppl gonna cut skin head on the board on Yx birthday..... Kinda exciting to see what i look like without hair but for Zihao, cant imagine that he would also join in and how he looks like. As usual, so much hw to do.....

A typical day

2006-07-24T17:26:00.000+08:00

Wa... just come back from sch. So many things happened. Quan told me so many things about ****** during chem lesson. He told me he felt heart ache and bla bla bla... dun wanna say. He asked me what kind of gal i go for, and i replied him first i look at personalities and next face. Haha!!!! Dunno if i should have told him or not cuz it almost rang off during sec 2 by some idiot.

Next, Kai got checked by henry tay and saw police arrive after sch as he was suspected of merokok, felt a little sad for him. A dumb incident then took place. After lunch, Benjamin threw his water bottle at me and i caught it but slipped of my hand. Instead of catching it, he juz stared at it break. He was angry and kept blaming me but was his fault for throwing it at me. Instead of feeling guilty, i and suf laugh like.....HAHAHAHA... After remedial, saw kai at the concourse. Principal dealing with the matter in the office and he sent to TRU. Didnt know so serious de. Then got so much hw to do.... haiz.....

If only life went juz the way u wanted it........

My First blogging day

2006-07-23T23:09:00.000+08:00

Woah... fun to have a blog. Today, waked up too early in the morning to go to chruch for the early service as korkor had to go back for his NS. I can never keep myself awake during sermons...ZZzzzz. Somehow even as Os draw near, I feel the urgency but cant bring myself to study. Probally cuz im still a kid and cant study.... My real life starts tomorrow!